#thestreetsofnyc

[davidcrunelle]

Why am I still not living here? I would be so beautifully fat. #huaweimate20pro #higherintelligence #NafatoramaNYC2018 #newyork #newyorkcity #newyork_instagram #newyorkinstagram #nyc #bigapple #thebigapple #nyclife #newyorklife #nycskyline #citylife #manhattangothamcity #thecitythatneversleeps #ilovenyc #thestreetsofnyc #gramercy #chryslerBuilding #nyctaxi #yellowcab (at Manhattan, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpj73PrF-ha/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cg5y7tskuhw6

[davidcrunelle]

My life has turned into a RPG where leveling up is getting fatter. #FatSouls #huaweimate20pro #higherintelligence #NafatoramaNYC2018 #newyork #newyorkcity #newyork_instagram #newyorkinstagram #nyc #bigapple #thebigapple #nyclife #newyorklife #nycskyline #citylife #manhattangothamcity #thecitythatneversleeps #ilovenyc #thestreetsofnyc (at Brooklyn, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpwm8UBF57t/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=p00e83lj4850

[jondinna]

#thestreetsofnyc (en Times Square, New York City) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0tgg_MguKa/?igshid=2jlsjjdpjsuz

[thoseshadowpeople]

Remember when we were walking toward the supermarket, just around the corner of my house? I wore my green coat and brown scarf, worn down shoes and torn stockings. You told me I looked like a hobo, I was proud. I felt you didn’t judge me, I felt safe. In that moment and so many more, I felt so safe with you. To me home is a wide concept created by environment rather than an actual place. It depends on time and feeling and people. You will always be home to me and I will always open my arms if you need one yourself. I miss you on nights like these, when I am alone but not lonely. I see the stars and think of your eyes. I see the moon and think of your tiny shape next to me curled up or skipping about or dancing joyfully or crying when I played that song. I wish to grow old with you. Have our kids grow up together. I want to be with you for the long road. Even if I look like a bum living on the side of it. Even if you are still stuck in the house at the start of it.

[thoseshadowpeople]

Dear Anahit, 

Today I went canoeing with my cousins. Jordy was there too and I was okay, but I wasn't at the same time because i haven't spend so much time together in a long time. I always prevented being too close to him.  Today I couldn't prevent that today. I kept wondering if he even really remembers all of it. I do. God, I do. And I feel stupid for thinking about it, I feel stupid for everything. After all this time there is still a part of me that blames myself and I hate that.  I tried to ignore all of it, the raging black cloud inside me and it kind of worked. I had a fun day, we got wet, my sister fell in a bunch of times which was quite satisfactory. My older cousins were really nice and asked me about school and my driving test and really listened. We had fries after and they drove me and my sister home.  I feel alright, even though this was a day full of painful memories and keeping everything inside of me. Sometimes letting go and try to forget really helps and that is exactly what I tried to do. 

Also, this morning when I went online on tumblr, I read a bunch of posts full of hateful comments on John Green. This afternoon I tried to understand again, but I've given up. Do you understand, it was something about misogeny and shit and frankly, I don't even care. I like him and will continue to like him and his books because they mean so much to me. 

Anyways, I'm gonna go, I love you,  Floor

[thoseshadowpeople]

me: pssht

friend: *whispers* what

me: frick frack

[thoseshadowpeople]

if anybody asks my who the most important person in my life is right now, i'd answer 'Anahit' straight away because she's my little baby and my big mom and my really great soul mate and i love her 

[thoseshadowpeople]

i was with a friend the other day and we were laying on her bedroom floor, staring out of the window. it was pretty cloudy so she said 'it's a shame there aren't any stars,' i replied ' ohh i see one!' because it was a big one and i was pretty exited and she looks me dead in the eye and goes 

'naw, that's just me'