Nov 26, 2018
I know you’re interested in me....the feeling is mutual, but I’m not done healing yet
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I know you’re interested in me....the feeling is mutual, but I’m not done healing yet
Do not tell me you love me if your love is attached to bloody lips and green bruises.
Do not tell me you love me if the late night sloppy I love yous are in a mental imagery of another.
Do not tell me you love me if the only reason you lay with me is due too the numbness of lonely carving a darker hole where your happy was.
Do not tell me you love me if it is conditioned.
Do not tell me you love me if everytime I look into the mirror and question my worth because you don't know mine.
Do not tell me you love me if I'm going to flinch everytime after you leave.
Do not tell me you love me unless you know what love is.
There isn't any poetic way to say it. Your laugh lights up the room and all that other bullshit.
Somedays I want to scream at you that i love you. I want to scream till my lungs turn to fire, "why didnt you love me, i did everything i could. Why didnt you tell me to stay and that you'll try. Why didnt you fight because i woke up every day ready for battle with you...why couldn't you fucking try. " but ill stare at pictures of us brokenly...endlessly. You don't love me.
I needed you to tell me to stay, more then anything on the day I left. But that's excatly why i left.
You wanted me
You left
I fell apart
But i put myself back together when i realized why you wanted me.
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I found someone that isn't you. And then I found someone again and then again. The first one made me feel the special way you did, that I was the only one. That there was something about me,I think I needed that. The second one the old one the one that I run two when I didn't have you. He hurt me just the way you did. So as i do I found a new one. I found someone, that gives me hope. The hope you use to give in start. The hope that ran thru my vains, my mind leaving traces of the esscance with every thought of new possibilities. I need to let you go
- Day 31