Jan 14, 2018
Do you know what it’s like to not be able to sleep at night?
To be kept awake with the thoughts of all the possibilities of tomorrow.
Or worse
The impossibilities. Things that will never happen.
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Do you know what it’s like to not be able to sleep at night?
To be kept awake with the thoughts of all the possibilities of tomorrow.
Or worse
The impossibilities. Things that will never happen.
I don't need you to fix me. I may be broken, But I don't need to be fixed. I need you to not abandon me. To just be there To accept me how I am. For who I am.
4:22pm
Sometimes I think I just need to write. Write everything down. Every thought. Every feeling. Just let it all out. Get it out of my head. I fill up scraps of paper with words. Lately they've been about you. Some are hopeful, some 'in love'. Others are dark, angry, and hurt. It's like I can't make up my mind about you. But let's be honest you don't help. I replay every moment between us in my head over and over. It's like watching the same movie repeatedly and then expecting a different outcome. That's madness.
I'm growing real tired of pretending I'm not in love with you.
Late night thoughts
I'm doing terrible at moving on. I keep telling myself to stay away. That I don't need that hurt in my chest anymore. But, this morning I woke up in your bed. Our legs intertwined. That sleepy look in your eyes. Your smell all over me.
boy, am I terrible at letting you go
I know that I'm broken. Hard to handle And maybe a bit crazy But, I also know I don't deserve to be treated like this.
7:15pm
I look for you in everyone I meet.
Some people say that having a goal is one way to make waking up and getting out of bed easier. I wonder if there’s any truth to that. I’ve been sitting here trying to set a goal. Ya know, something simple and reachable. But still something to work for. I’ve decided that I’m going to make that goal to write a book. When I pick up a book, I love the feeling of not being alone with certain thoughts, and feelings. I would love the chance to have someone read what I have written and feel like they were no longer alone in the world. That they were not the only one. Let’s see if this helps..