Note to self...
When will I stop?
I’m disappointed in you. You know better but you pushed it because you wanted to go please yourself. Are you really that selfish !? Are you really that weak!? Do you not have self control, any self discipline!? Why do you do this to yourself!? Tbh you really know how to put an act. It’s not cute grow up! If I came and you’d care to be with me you wouldn’t have fallen like you always do. But you’re actions show that you don’t love me. You say it but I need to see it in your actions, in your behavior, it’s not cutting it to just hear you say it. If you’d love me for real you’d communicate with me better, you would talk to me about everything first, when the times of temptation, anger, desperation, sadness and when your anxiety is coming down on you, you would come and find me to help you! But you don’t instead, you dwell on them and you feel sorry for yourself. It ain’t like that. Wake up already and grow up stop being so afraid. I have given you it all... everything you’ve asked of me and more than what you’ve asked of, do not be ungrateful, do not be like those you once said you wouldn’t want to be. Do not think you can fool me. You know that I am loving and forgiving but you need to stop and turn away from all the toxins you’ve allowed in your life. You ask for change and you cry and wonder if I am even listening and I am it’s just that you don’t feel like it because you have distanced yourself too far from me that you can’t hear me whisper! All the noise you’ve created around you is not allowing for you to listen and hear me.
Regardless I will always love you but I can’t save you if you don’t change...