I don’t know why I feel the need to announce this but I just do. You all know kpop is a major part of my life and BTS was part of that. Of course they still are, they’re the reason I’m in this kpop thing for life now, Seokjin is my entire heart and they’ve helped me through so many things. But - A/RMY is so fucking toxic and ugly and the last year seeing how they act has just ruined a lot for me when it comes to BTS. I don’t get as excited for comebacks or the smallest things like I used to, most of the time I avoid or ignore anything regarding the group on social media. Every now and then I’ll check up on them, see who posted a selca, etc. But it’s not like it was before.
That being said, I can finally admit to myself that they aren’t number one for me anymore. It’s sort of sad and probably dumb to some people to even look into this much but - if you’re a kpop stan you get it. However, I’ve discovered so many other amazing groups who keep this excited fire alive in me. ATEEZ, SEVENTEEN, KNK, VICTON and my newly appointed number one - MONSTA X.
I’ve been such a fan of MX for over a year now, they were my first kpop concert and with that concert my love for them flourished. Us Monbebe’s have gone through a lot the past year but still the boys are going strong and their new mini album coming out, Wonho going solo, it’s just such a great time. And I realized MX makes me feel the way I used to with BTS. They have for a long time now and I just always felt shitty for even thinking they could take BTS’s place because I don’t know, the fandom and community has a way of making you feel like shit if BTS isn’t your reason for fucking breathing. The Monbebe’s though, they are so beautiful inside and out, they rally together for each other and other fandoms, they aren’t toxic and they’re bad ass bitches and I’m proud to be part of them.