i’m so glad we’re getting new cr content tonight. this time in april is always weird so for me? today would have been my grandad’s birthday and saturday would have been my mum’s and i just miss them so much. they were my family birthday buddies and now it’s just me and sometimes it’s fine but sometimes it’s the worst and the lack of distractions this year is making it swing towards the shitty. i normally work through it by going out with my family and friends and appreciating everyone i still have but i obviously can’t do that right now. and my heart is breaking for the world and everyone affected by what’s going on. i was looking forward to being able to wake up on my birthday and watch talks and see some of my favourite humans and laugh a whole lot but instead it’s just a constant barrage of media about how the world is suffering. and then i get stressed out about me feeling bad when so many people have it worse. so yeah it’s a hot mess! but so much appreciation for cr and them still trying to get content to us, it means so much.
Hello love ❤️ I saw your replies that you feel bad and I truly wish you get better soon! Does your mental health has something to do with your previous relationships? You don’t need to answer , and I’m very sorry if I asked something too personal😞 but I really really wish you everything good, I’m also struggling with mental health rn and I have this terrible feeling that I’m loosing time, like I didn’t notice how 9 months of this year are gone so far and I’m still doing same bad as it was at the beginning🙁
Hiya love! 💜 Thank you so much! A lot of my mental health problems stem from my bad experiences in school and in my family life but my bad relationships also contribute to it as well as I’ve had a fair few bad ones...Like...Why do I only pick the bad ones guys help me out 💜 It’s totally okay, don’t be sorry. I love being open with you all about this sort of thing as it makes you feel like you can all come and talk to me which you can 💜 💜 I’m really sorry you’re struggling right now, I totally feel you with the loosing time feeling I didn’t even notice we were in September until i saw all of the Halloween and Christmas things coming into stores, threw me through a loop but we all go through things and everyone had different healing times my love 💜 I know I’m just as bad as I was last year even though I was just discharged from therapy back in March/April time so it’s totally normally to feel like you’re doing the same or you are, everyone has different healing times or you can feel like you’re doing better and then back track, it’s normal 💜 💜
I’ll be totally honest with you now. ( Putting this under a keep reading because it might trigger some people. TW/ Describing a panic attack I had just last night along with continued advice)
Last night I had one of the worst panic attacks I’ve had in the last six months? I get the odd small one now and again but last night was out of no where. I was watching Sailor Moon crystal when it hit me. It was literally from nowhere. I got hot and I got sweaty and I knew it was a panic attack because I had all of the usual symptoms I get with them. I ended up rushing down to my mum who was in our living room where I proceeded to sob and scream (apparently I was physically screaming) and then (I dont remember much from this point so I’m going by my mums recall) my brother - who I don’t normally get along with, he’s quite the....Cunt but he took me under his arm and took me out into the kitchen where he got me some water and put me back to my mum trying to calm me down, I remember him telling to think happy thoughts before he went to get his girlfriend who came down to comfort me as well.
I eventually calmed down from the help of my brothers dog and he took me back up to bed and put on some ‘kpop’ (I’m not joking he has no idea what I listen to so he put kpop into my xbox on youtube and clicked the first video he saw bless him.
What I’m trying to say is that it doesn’t matter if you’re in therapy, past therapy or are awaiting for therapy you can (NOT ALWAYS) but can slip back into being in bad mental health. I know people who have been like me and are now doing great (have their off days as we all do) but are doing a lot better. Everyone is different so I hope you understand that love.
We all have different healing times, and I hope that hearing from someone who was discharged from therapy and still struggles makes you realise that everyone is different and everyone gets to feeling the same way so you don’t feel alone in it. You always come to me and that goes for all of you I promise 💜💜💜 I love you all so much and you help me without even knowing it
Once you get this you have to say 5 nice things about yourself publicly and then send it to 10 of your favorite followers (not back to me, I did it already). Thinking good thoughts about yourself is hard but it will make you feel better so give it a go, for the sake of spreading positivity
Aw thanks Sabrina :3
I really like how smooth my hands and arms are. (That kinda sounds weird but it's true. I've been complimented on it many time XD)
The craziness that is my hair. Some people may hate dealing with curls, but I think it gives me character.
I like my hand writing, even tho it's sloppy, it's my kind of sloppy :3
Um... Idk. I like my gaming abilities. I guess XD What I mean by that is that I'm a quick study when playing video games. Either that or I don't know what the hell I'm doing. No there is no in between.
I love how many lives I've changed and I know I have. When I think about that it makes me happy knowing I've made others happy. :)
