Headcanon
AKA the thing Jen tried to come up with in First Storm
Spock is an oxymoron. He always has been. It’s his character. He is human and Vulcan and it is struggle between being two parts of a whole that makes his character. A ying and yang between two sides. Humans show emotions. Vulcans don’t. This is the most common one but there are more. For example Humans are social. Vulcans are not. But I realized that there’s another one, that’s a little more metaphorical. Vulcan is a desert planet. Earth is a water planet. Yes we live on the land, but we’re literally “the blue planet" because of how much water we have. We swim in it, it rains all the time... it's a water planet. Now I KNOW Spock as a child, struggled between these two sides of him and trying to find a balance, or choose which is better. And I headcanon HARD that he used to find places that he could go to meditate and be himself. I believe that he used to go out into the desert. Because it was alone, but also because he felt calm there. Because he could be himself and not have to hide emotions and he could ponder and think and be logical too. And then I thought. Why wouldn’t he like the rain? Well, that creates a problem because Vulcans don’t like water. At least in my headcanons. But Spock does. Canonly. He even voluntarily swims in it in one of the movies. To say Spock doesn’t like water because of that is to completely ignore that he is also human. I think he’d love the rain which is all he’d ever see on Vulcan as opposed to It’s everything opposite, which is his whole character. The desert is silent. The rain is deafening by comparison. The desert is burning. The rain is cool. Spock would find a lot of comfort in both the desert and the rain That’s kinda why I wrote the story??? But I think he likes the solitude. When he’s on Vulcan He;d often slips away into the desert to be alone And on the rare occasion it rains, and all the Vulcans go inside, he stays out and enjoys the rain. And at the Academy/Earth Slipping away to the deserts nearby and also going out in the rain when its pouring and everyone else is inside Thinking about it- the Academy wouldn’t be all that different than Vulcan... People avoid the water and the desert. Kinda like they avoid Spock? ~theres something to be added here later about that probably~ Anyways I like the idea that Spock is both water and desert But then I realized that water in itself is an oxymoron It can be calm. It can be rough. It brings life. It destroys and can kill. Technically, so is the desert. We think of the desert as barren But it’s full of life And I’m sure there are more that I’m not thinking of right now I think Vulcans would tend to think good things about the desert and the bad about the water. They’d see the destruction water can bring to their cities and only focus on that. It’s a taboo thing. And humans think the other way. They see water as good and wonderful and deserts as death and heat and sun. That’s why we have “Death Valley”. Just the fact that he is the sum of two parts that are also two parts... idk I think it just makes it match Spock a lot more
