#thisnightsucks

[acarisharhmless]

I just typed an entire essay into a tumblr post, and then discarded it because I don't want you to frown anymore.

[thepenguinwhocantalk]

my sister and I are alone tonight so we decided to sleep together in the living room but now she's asleep and I'm freaking out by myself bc there's too much noises and I don't like it and idk what to do to distract myself and I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna get any sleep tonight yay

[dearestwildchild]

Seriously is there something wrong with me? I understand I might be naive. I understand you want more. But guess what It's not going to happen. And I understand that you obviously are interested in someone else. But don't you dare toy with me emotions. The fact that you think you can still get get away with it leaves me dumbfounded. Stop. Please. I actually have emotions. And I actually have a heart. Don't take advantage of the fact that I care for you dearly. Please. It would have been better to stop talking to me all together. I wish I could say I'm done. But somehow I know this isn't the end. I feel like you're trapping me in my own ring of fire. All I care about is that you'll be happy. Please don't take advantage of that.

[aceandloafters]

I already told you the answer so dont fucking ask me again and expect a different answer. You should know that im a straightforward person and everything ive said, sober or not, is honest-to-god true. Ive been seriously friendly but avoided physical contact as you may interpret some my actions in a different way. But thats it. YOU ARE MY FRIEND. Youve put me on the spot and asked me, in a truth or dare game in front of everyone, a question and i of course answered honestly. You didnt like my answer and i fully understand. (K) didnt like my answer too and said that im hurting you. That seriously pissed me off. I was asked to answer honestly, and so i did but why do i feel like im being penalized for it? Im fully aware that im hurting you and that killed me especially when i saw your reaction. I may look insensitive for answering the way that i did, which is by my standards is actually nice but i am only sparing you more hurt later on if i lie to you (which would lead to you expecting more from me) and know the truth later on. In my opinion, that option stings more. I understand that feeling, trust me ive dealt with it before but now i am asking you to understand mine. I dont like you the way you want me to. I dont get into relationships im not fully confident about. I may look outgoing and open but i have to push people away. I just cant let anyone in i know im going to hurt and might hurt me later on. Ive had my fair share of that kind of people already and i dont need more. I dont need this stress right now, im dealing with loads of that already. I dont beat around the bush and i may hurt people that way but thats me and i cant change it. Im sorry for hurting you but i cant feel guilty anymore. I did nothing wrong, only told you the truth you badly needed to hear. And i just hope it wont be awkward seeing you next week.