#thisskin

[jjdecker]

What's 1 thing that has brought the most happiness into your life? For me it's drumming. So enjoy #ThisSkin w/ #StitchedUpHeart #Yamaha #drums #Sabian #cymbals #Vater #drumsticks https://www.instagram.com/p/B_ad6cjn8Qv/?igshid=9ia759c4pr71

[matteohudson]

Now Listening: Stitched Up Heart - Darkness. #stitchedupheart #stitchedupheartdarkness #lost #thisskin #problems #warrior #straitjacket #dirtysecrets #darkness #bones #deadroses #crookedhalo #mydemons #2020 #2020album #gothicmetal #hardrock #alternativemetal #nowlistening #nowplaying https://www.instagram.com/p/B9z2T9IISIt/?igshid=z375bpiszbpz

[jjdecker]

Monday blues? Nope. #APMagazine releases #ThisSkin and #DeadRoses tomorrow! #StitchedUpHeart and #SteelPanther at #HOBBoston tonight 🤘 (at House of Blues Boston) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5Qz6aBnUok/?igshid=11bfrohlyj4px

[thisskintv]

Day 8 and my skin is still singing the same ole song

I probably fucked up with the mocha soy latte yesterday and gluten free bbq chips. 

You know when you are on the right path then someone says "Let's stop at Starbucks" and everything you had been telling yourself goes right now the window and the only thing you can think of is "I NEED AN ICED MOCHA!!". And right as you begin to sip the drink you thought you would give your left leg for, you think "What the fuck is wrong with me?......Well, I don't want to waste it, might as well drink it".

Or how about when you had a healthy ass dinner that you were so proud of yourself for eating and your husband breaks out the chips and your eyes glaze over with excitement. I told him when he brought them home "Ew, these are nasty, they aren't the good kind" and somehow those words didn't sink in when I shoved 12 handfuls of those suckers down my throat without even coming up for air. 

I took two steps forward then took two steps back. But somehow this shit isn't coming together. 

I messed up.....NO MORE COFFEE! Keep it away from me for real! In order to apologize to myself I drove over the hill to West Hollywood today for some Pressed Juicery. Yum. Apology accepted.

[thisskintv]

Day 7 of clearing my acne on my own

I have to say my skin looks slightly better again this morning. It makes me hopeful, but as I have learned in the past, it clears up just to come back with a vengeance when you thought it was gone for good. I'm not eating any animal products or gluten. I did however scarf down popcorn and cold press coffee at work yesterday. I know this is going to haunt me. Waiting for my period to start so I can do my birth control pills. I'm dying to wear makeup so I can put my hair up but I'm not going to do it. I just have to bite the bullet and accept my monster skin for now. I started oil pulling again last night. It seems hokey pokey but I'll give it another try. I did it for a few weeks over 2 years ago and didn't notice a difference in anything but a lot of people still stand by it. I'm off to go drink more water and make a bomb ass salad.

[thisskintv]

Day 6: Looking no different than day 1. Whoop that trick.

Every morning for the past 20 years, the moment I wake up I find a mirror immediately to see where I stand for the rest of the day. Today when I did that ritual, I thought "My face looks 1% better. I'm slightly satisfied" although in photos it looks exactly the same. 

Again, no dairy, no meat, no eggs. I did fuck up and have soy milk with my sample coffee at Trader Joe's. I wanted to stay away from soy but the small amount is not going to make me stay up at night and beat myself up over it.

Tonight my boys are eating meat (slurp) while I eat broccoli and brown rice pasta with vegan pesto. I would love to get to a point where I ban grains as well but I want to keep them in my diet for a bit during this transition. 

Just picked up my birth control which is low estrogen. Hoping I don't turn into a massive biotch. 

I'll probably wash my face with my black african soap and then slop on a small amount of the oil concoction I made for my face that has jojoba, coconut and tea tree oils. 

I have to work tomorrow and I hate being worried about this shit skin while I'm talking to people. I've been wearing my hair down for over a month to hide the horror show on my face and neck and I'm dying to just wear it in a bun. I know the hair on my skin is also bad so that is why I wear it up while I'm home. 

I'll check back in tomorrow with more gorgeous photos to blow your mind.

Peace!

[thisskintv]

Day 5 on "Road to anything-but-this"

It's the second day off my detox. I did not eat any animal products today. I worked out this morning then went for a massage. Drinking lots of water, tea and making sure to not touch my face. 

I have decided to give my birth control pills another go to see how they affect my skin. It goes against my "all natural" beliefs, but I've just about had it. 

I can't believe this skin is mine, and yet, I can't even imagine having clear skin. I want to cry every second of the day but I just pretend I can't see my face.

I'm trying to keep it simple with what I am using on my face. I may even do the oil cleansing method again with Jojoba oil and tea tree oil. 

Don't even get me started on how many damn videos I had to make on my Ipad before tumblr excepted the length of the video below.

Time to wash my face. It's hot as hell here and I'm already sticky.

[thisskintv]

This is what I’m dealing with.