Today, for the first time, I finally threw a tantrum at KD, face-to-face, directly, right at the start of the date. He was late again, for what feels like the millionth time. I was also terribly sick and couldn't bear another minute of waiting. He immediately saw how upset I was and apologized right away but that didn't calm me down. I even threatened to leave if he was late again. In hindsight, I don't know if it was a wise thing to do or not, I reckon it wasn't. I don't want to leave him, but I hate waiting for him. Either he needs to change, or I do.
Despite my rage, he didn't react aggressively. Instead, he gently waited for me to calm down, held my hands and consistently apologized. He pulled the chair out for me, cut up beefsteak for me-- those gestures really warmed my heart. Afterwards, I asked him whether he had suppressed his anger towards my attitude. He said no and told me he was clearly in the wrong. KD is young but he is more matured and well-brought-up than many men I have known, including me. I gotta learn to control my feelings rather than letting them loose like I did today.
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Today, for the first time, I finally threw a tantrum at KD, face-to-face, right at the start of our date. He was late again, for what feels like the millionth time. I was also terribly sick and couldn't bear another minute of waiting. Although he immediately saw how upset I was and apologized, it didn't calm me down. I even threatened to leave if he was late again. In hindsight, I don't know if that was the right thing to do; probably not. I don't want to leave him, but I hate waiting for him. Either he needs to change, or I do.
Despite my anger, KD didn't react aggressively. Instead, he gently waited for me to calm down, held my hands, and kept apologizing. He pulled out my chair and even cut up my steak for me—those gestures really warmed my heart. Afterward, I asked if he was suppressing his anger towards me. He said no and admitted he was at fault. KD is young, but he's more mature and well-mannered than many men I know, including myself. I need to learn to control my emotions rather than letting them loose like I did today.
