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[runningbarefootonice]

78, 80, 81, 85, 117, 134, 138 :)

First of all, I’m sorry for replying late, I was tired and couldn’t concentrate last night.

78: How can you win my heart? I don’t know, don’t make fun of me when I tell you how I feel, don’t say “Come on, it’s not that hard” when I tell you I can’t handle a situation (due to my social anxiety), try to be understanding but please don’t tell me you know exactly how I feel because you’re sometimes shy around new people. Please don’t make fun of my body and don’t comment on what I’m eating. And please don’t get mad when I don’t talk much. It’s not because I don’t want, actually it’s very likely that I want to talk to you and I’m too scared. Oh, and please don’t make fun of me for being quiet. Just don’t. Now I listed things that you shouldn’t do, but is there anything you should do instead? … I don’t know, if you avoid the said things, I most probably like you already.

80: What is my favorite word? I’m afraid I don’t really have one…

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblrThis is always a bit difficult, at first I can’t think of any blogs I follow, and then, when I thought about it a little bit, I can’t pick only five. But I’ll try. So…  homegrown-alpaca.tumblr.compantsareunwelcome.coml-ezbian.tumblr.comwe-are-columbine-4-20-99.tumblr.comand yours!

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? If the girl I had a major crush on last year asked me if she was the girl I was always talking about, I wouldn’t know what to say. Yes, of course she was that girl, and sometimes I was seriously hoping we would end up as a couple, even though that was pretty ridiculous. She told me that she might be bisexual, but I don’t even know how serious that is. And even if she is, she was probably never interested in me. Well, if she asked me, I don’t know if I would tell the truth.

117: What concerts have I been to? Wir sind Helden (twice), Tokio Hotel (five times), LaFee, Cinema Bizarre (four times), An Cafe (twice), Miyavi (twice), D’espairsRay, Adam Lambert, The Fool (twice), Scargot (twice), Girugamesh, Madsen, Juli, Maximum the hormone, Dir en grey, Killerpilze (three times), Dead by April (four times), I think that’s it.

134: What do I want for birthday? My birthday is in december, I don’t know yet. But I will probably want books and money, or maybe CDs.

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? I honestly don’t remember if I had one. But I can show you the pillow I got when I was maybe 4, I loved it and I still have it.

Thank you for asking me questions! :3 

[runningbarefootonice]

Hey :) Please answer 18, 35 (what was it?), 44, 47, 49, 59, 71, 88, 102

Wow, that’s more than I expected, thank you for asking!! :)

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? No, I never told anyone. Sometimes I did plan to say it, but I lacked courage in the end, everytime.35. Did you have a dream last night? I can’t remember the last time I had a dream that made at least a bit sense. I think I didn’t have one last night. Or it was a weird one that I can’t describe because I have no idea what actually happened. 44. What’s the best part about school? When I was in school, I got home earlier than I do now. And I could also leave the house later in the morning. 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? I do all the time. I often think about what I could have said or done differently. 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? I was still in school, I had good grades, but this was pretty much everything I cared about. For the first time in years, some teachers actually respected me and I wasn’t seen as an extremely lazy student. (Because the reason for bad grades is always the student’s laziness, you know. Students don’t have personal problems or mental disorders, nah, they’re just very lazy. It’s helpful to tell them they are dumb and lazy, and also make sure to tell the entire class that the student got a bad grade again. That’s motivating.) So, I studied much, which is a good thing actually, but I got mad and cried and yelled at everyone when I didn’t understand something. I was sure that I would do so badly in the upcoming test that the teachers would finally realize that I’m still fucking dumb and start treating me like I was treated from 5th to 10th grade. And I was generally so testy, I got mad over everything, I argued with my best friend so much that I’m still wondering why she did not stop talking to me. Also, I had set a date for my suicide. Now, two years later, I am stronger.  59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? There is this one friend, she has seen me cry several times. (Fun fact: I hardly talk to her about how I feel. There’s another friend I tell everything to, but she has never actually seen me cry - that’s because we met only once. I trust my internet friends more than those in real life. This fact wasn’t fun at all.) 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? Yes. L. I think she’s the most non-judgemental person I know. She’s amazing. I wish we would talk more often, but I’m always afraid I could annoy her. Today she texted me first, and it made me so happy, because hey, L thought of me, and she decided to talk to me… Lately I’ve been thinking that I might have a crush on her, I’m not sure about it all. And I don’t like that. I want to be friends with her, and I don’t want to ruin it. 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? I’m not sure if I have really experienced true love. Well, there was this girl, I thought I was in love with her at that time, maybe it actually was love, I don’t know, but I was never in a relationship with her.

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? The girl I had feelings for last year. Sometimes she told me that she really enjoyed talking to me, or even that she liked me generally, and it made me smile until my cheeks hurt.

[runningbarefootonice]

5, 29, 43? <3

5) Ever had a poem or song written about you? No, not that I’m aware of. 29) Do you have any obsessions right now?I think I kind of developed an obsession with murderers, you know? I’m not even sure how I got into this.

43) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? Mystery by Dead by April. It makes me smile instantly whenever I listen to it, and I just sit there, smiling like an idiot and thinking about how much I love this band.

Thank you!! :)