It's odd how I find myself trying to look and look for areas in my life I want to fix. In order to call myself truly deeply happy & content, I feel like it's important one should just be good to accept the natural broken condition or state or nature of certain things.
I always thought: "hey, once I got this one big job, I'm good, I'm finally at peace." "hey once I look fit, no mountains too high anymore"
But now I suddenly experience a wavering desire to meet with many of my friends, meet people, spend less time on my own (eventhough I don't struggle with aloneness in the lonely sense and as it is, alone-time is my remedy against burnout and depression, etc).
Sometimes it's like I keep scanning the room for pots, pans, drawers, vases, cans of half-opened projects. What should need some love, what some fixing. But 2026 is about realizing and practicing not everything needs my fingers on them. That the flaws, cliff-hangers and cracks in the ceiling are here to exist with me. It's not going to disturb the inner peace, like the hard labour of 3 decades, that I have made with myself.
