MZ

31, Dutch, thinking globally, doing locally, working internationally, head and heart aligned

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My best new friend @ the guesthouse + the view from my balcony 🏔

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Reaching my guesthouse via winding rural tracks with thunder in the mountains

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Me & my rental car cruising the Italian Dolomiti Valley

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Plushie bought for Jen but mine until she gets her paws on it

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This Austrian Burger King playing angry Alanis like it compels me to toss the Swarovski shop's window across the street in with a Whopper

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You only got to give yourself permission

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Love letter to me (old, kept in drafts)

"Michelle, what I noticed first about you wasn't excitement but it was ease. The kind of ease that doesn't happen because people are simple, but because neither person has to spend all their energy translating themselves all the time.

I remember how our conversations just seemed to find their own way. I didn't have to explain every feeling from the beginning. You somehow understood the language underneath my/our words. The pauses and the things unsaid. The memories hidden inside ordinary stories.

That means more to me than you probably realize. You brought lightness into my life without making me feel shallow. You brought warmth without demanding performance. You brought affection without making it feel conditional. I've by now realized how rare that is.

I used to think love was supposed to feel dramatic. Like some constant intensity. Like being pulled apart and put back together again. But now I think love is quieter.

It's someone remembering the thing you mentioned three weeks ago. It's feeling safe enough to be tired with somebody.

It's knowing that if life becomes difficult, the person beside you won't disappear.

When I think of you, I think of steadiness, but not boring steadiness, but a rooted tree.

The kind that lets two people stop proving themselves and start growing together. Of course, we are different.

I know I can become lost in my thoughts. I know I sometimes carry emotions longer than I should.

I know there are days when I retreat into myself and forget that people cannot read minds. But you have a way of meeting me halfway.

Not by fixing me but simply by staying. And maybe that's what I've come to value most. Not the people who create the loudest feelings. The people whose presence makes life on earth feel more like home."

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Gehe immer Spazieren

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I came here to think about areas of my life that are getting heavy to carry, and with 32 on the horizon, even questions about a family, children, marriage, myself, are a thing that has become tangible compared to 5 years ago. How to live a life that's most fulfilling with what I have at hand?