#thoughts to keep

[beaute-et-amour]

How do you feel about your own job ?

“...That’d depend on what part of it that you’re asking about..“ He sighed and scratched his chin. “The work I do in the office isn’t too bad. It’s terribly boring et annoying to deal with mais- It’s still a lot better than when I ‘ave to deal with mon ‘job’ as a country. As for that job.. I hate it.“

[beaute-et-amour]

Heartbreak

Getting over a breakup was never easy. Even less when it was with someone who you had loved so intensely and passionately that you lost yourself in that love.  It took a lot of time and a lot of effort before the pain in your heart stopped burning so intensely every time you looked at the person. There was many sleepless nights filled with tears before you could genuinely smile at the person that used to share every happy moment with you.  He had tried hard, very, very hard to not let Toni see how much it hurt him to be near the man he loved so dearly for so long and it was almost impossible to resist the dark temptation of Antonio’s brilliant smile and warm touch. 

It had taken months of Francis not even allowing himself to hang out with his ex-fiance properly and after all this time, he felt as if he could at least breathe a bit easier. 

It no longer burned to see Toni flirt with others and it was no longer a life or death struggle to keep his hands to himself when they were close. He didn’t feel like a new man and he never would as France would forever love Spain deep down. His reasoning for leaving the Spaniard was something that Toni would probably never understand but when they were together, it was slowly killing the Frenchman and all the little things that made him who he was. 

Antonio had insisted that he could change for Francis’ sake but Francis was sure that Toni would come to resent him in the end since it’d force Spain to go through the same dilemma that Francis had suffered. That situation was something that Francis loved Spain too much to force him through and of course, the Frenchman was absolutely terrified of being hated by Antonio for any reason. 

During those long nights when he cried more than what should be possible, the blonde would curse himself and his cowardly side for running away from the pain that would come should they have continued to be together. The happier he believed that Spain was without him though, the easier did it become to swallow the pain and move on. 

[scienceoftheidiot]

I think I have found reasons not feel guilty/angry at myself because I leave work earlier than others. 

I have now witnessed the other PhD student work on writing her stuff. Oddly enough since I tend to write in English a lot (hello Tumblr/novel/fanfics), I’m twice as fast, AND I don’t need much correcting (not as much as her - I am the one correcting her stuff, because come on, we should help each other, not try to drown the others like our supervisors want !). 

But moreso. They all. ALL. Have their loved ones at home. And yeah, in this case you would want to come back early, but their loved ones contrary to mine who’s 1) not here and 2) also doing a PhD, they all work less, or have different hours. 

So they have someone who does their share of cooking, washing the dishes, cleaning, and can go groceries to nice places where you get organic food or such (yeaaah I am also quite feeling unwell seeing how good they eat haha). 

Me ? I have Ed. 

I can’t send Ed to do groceries. He’d probably come back with cat food, fish and TONS OF TOILET PAPER. 

[thebrat]

Speak kindly.

[thebrat]

"If you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely." - Roald Dahl

[liolia]

A reminder of nice things

[kagami-shortcake]

Reality, though harsh and honest, can sometimes be our greatest joy.