#thoughtscatalog

[thatsohkaye]

Sometimes, the heart is more honest than the mind. But it is better to let the mind speak while the heart is silent--it will save you from the mystery of life.

thatsohkaye

[thatsohkaye]

In the process...

Trying to put your life together is a tough one especially if you are still seeking for the thing that you really want to do. For the people who are in their 20s, it will take a tiresome time to realize what shit they want to do with their lives.

It’s almost midnight and I am here, sitting on my bed—in front of my laptop—trying to put my thoughts into words. It is always hard for me to express, but I think it is time to be true to myself. Being in the age where you are expected to be good at the thing that you thought you are good at doing is a total nightmare. People will think that you must be good at this and that because this is what you are trying to pursue. But the real thing is, there are a lot of people who are way better that you—and you, you will never be recognized. Because of that, you will end up disappointing those who are expecting a lot from you; and you will disappoint the most important person in this journey, yourself. End of the game.

But, is it really where the story must end? I think no. At least I don’t think so. That is just the beginning of your story. There are no easy challenges in real life. If you are going to give up easily just because you feel like you already gave your all and you still cannot feel the positive outcome of it, then you are not yet giving the best fight that you could give. Keep in mind that, most of the successful people in the world did not wake up one morning with a million dollar in their hands. You don’t get the things that you want on a silver platter—you must work hard for it. Yes, it is cliché, but you must remind yourself that even richest person in the entire world is also having a lot of hard times just to do what he wants to do.

Along your way to the journey of your life, you’ll encounter problems. There are problems that are easy but there are also ones that might test your patience and your strength and giving up is never the answer. There are some people who are blessed to have an optimistic mindset and I envy those people. I have always dreamed of being a futuristic person, but I guess I just don’t want to set my hopes so high and end up being nothing. So, I always try to remind myself that I am still in the process of learning things and knowing myself more.

I hear the silence of the night and after a few hours, the sun will again rise. The sun is a reminder to me that for as long as there is a light to follow, my future is still bright. The darkness of the night is a reminder that everyone needs a break and just embrace the end of the day for tomorrow will be another day of struggling.

Just do you. Do what you want to do and don’t pressure yourself too much. Don’t get discouraged because of the people who are already there, in the process of reaching their goals and dreams in life. Your time will come. You have your own timeline. The world will surprise you and you will be in awe when God works and lead you to where you are supposed to be.

09-12-18

[haciedee]

As I watch you sleep I see the years you’ve been with me. Countless days and nights, Romance like a roller coaster ride. At first I smile but stop then ask Is it still me that you still want? Is it my face you see? Is it my name you speak? When dreams take you from reality.

[haciedee]

[haciedee]

I look behind to see the battles that I fought and won, knowing that despite everything, I still lost the war. Misery comes to me like an old friend - unpleasant but familiar, and I embrace it as I embrace defeat. This is the other end of the tunnel the light can’t reach, the corner of the room that's farthest from the window, and the void to which i succumb. This is the price of giving your soul completely

[puresongblog]

I swear this sent chills down my spine

[loltenzinstuff]

[februarycharlie]

Dear God,

Dear God, Please don’t let me get attached to what’s not meant for me anymore. Don’t let me get attached to something or someone that you plan on taking away from me. I know your plan is unknown but until you reveal it to me, please make it easier. Don’t let me hold on to what I need to let go of. Don’t let me fight for what I need to release. Do not let me desire what will eventually destroy me. Do not let me love those who will break my heart. Because I get attached easily and I hold on to things tightly, so please don’t let my mind want things that I can’t handle, don’t let my mind trick me into wanting things I don’t need or things that are not good for me. Please don’t let my heart miss people who don’t miss me. Don’t let my heart long for the ones who left. Don’t let my heart fall in love with someone who doesn’t want to stay. Please don’t let me get attached to the things that keep me up at night, to people who leave me wondering and to places I’m not meant to live in. Bring me closer to what’s meant for me, let me hold on to those who are meant to stay. But let me forget about the things that were never meant to be, give me the faith I need to believe that I’m better off without them. Give me the wisdom I need to realize that I deserve so much better and that I’ll be happier somewhere else with somebody else. Or just give me tolerance I need right now to be okay with not getting the things I want, with not loving the ones I wanted to love and give me the patience I need to wait for your blessings and wait for your gifts. But for now, please don’t let me get attached to what’s wrong for me. Don’t let me invest so much in things or people I’m bound to lose. Don’t let me want what’s not mine. Don’t let me build a future around what’s temporary.