#thread . poe

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if this was a bad idea when they’d agreed to meet again, it’s a catastrophic idea now. given how the plans had unfolded - and they had certainly unfolded the way the first order wanted - the last thing a knight of ren should be doing is meeting with a prominent and influential resistance commander. it’s dangerous for them both if they’re caught. but he agreed to meet.

and - for all of his will, kuruk... wants to see poe again.

one advantage of his position as a knight, kuruk was able to find a location far away enough from the first order patrols, at least.. he sneaks into a deserted building in a less populated end of the city easily enough after being absolutely sure no one had followed him, does a quick check of the small building, and then settles down to wait for the pilot to arrive, rifle resting on his lap. just in case poe isn’t quite as well-intentioned as he claims to be.

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it seems that coruscant is full of old ghosts jacen’s been trying to forget since his parents were killed. people who.. he can’t seem to escape, no matter how hard he’s tried to do so for years now. and this one’s not even an actual ghost not someone who’s been brought here from his past like his parents have.

at least with them.. well, they’re the ones who left him. with poe, it’s different.

he’s just considering his options, trying to piece together exactly how he can disappear without the pilot noticing when - kriff, they make eye contact, and jacen knows it wouldn’t be fair. it was one thing to ghost his friend back when they were younger, but for him to disappear after letting poe see him is something else entirely. jacen may have cut himself off from that part of his life - and for good reason - but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care for the people he knew all those years ago.

letting out a sigh, jacen nods towards a quieter alleyway off to the side of the street, looking back towards poe to make sure he understands before making his way into the alleyway. it likely won’t matter if they’re seen together, but.. a busy street isn’t really the best place to catch up. “i should’ve known you’d be here.” he calls as he spots poe following him, a surprised, slightly awkward smile on his face. what else can you say, to a friend you disappeared on without a word? “you always followed trouble around, even when we were kids.”

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“i missed dinner with a colleague for this, you know.” kuruk says as he settles against the pillows, stretching out and making himself comfortable. he was meant to meet with one of the other knights for an extremely boring round of comparing notes on their current task of finding the politicians killer. this was a much better way to spend his time, though, even if his absence is likely to raise questions later.

still, he’s sure he can avoid that easily enough. pushing the thought to the back of his mind, kuruk glances over at poe with a raised eyebrow. “might just have to make that up to me. they’re going to be very upset i wasn’t around.” he’s going to have to head back to base soon, he knows. but for now, kuruk’s perfectly happy just lazing around for as long as he can get away with it.

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this certainly isn’t a smart idea. kuruk’s been telling himself that over and over, ever since poe sent him the message. meeting in public this way, anywhere that he could be spotted in poe’s presence without arresting him, it’s risky to say the least. if he’s spotted he’ll have a lot of explaining to do. and if poe’s found out who kuruk is and is using this to try and corner him, it’s going to take a lot to fight his way out of it without backup.

but.. poe had insisted it was an emergency. and while kuruk can’t be sure what kind of emergency would have the pilot call for his help rather than his resistance friends, he doesn’t like thinking of leaving the man high and dry, either. not when he could genuinely be in danger of some kind. that’s just - impossible to even consider. so he shows up at the coordinates given - an alleyway that seems peaceful enough - in his civilian clothing, his hair tied back in a messy bun today rather than leaving it out. “what’s the emergency?” he asks as he approaches the pilot, eyes darting around to look for anything that could be a threat of some kind, anything that could’ve warranted poe asking him here today.

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if kuruk was smart, he’d simply stop seeing the pilot. that’s what he should do. poe doesn’t know where to find him, there’s no way they would cross paths again unless kuruk wanted it to happen. it would be easy, to just... disappear, never see him again.

but it doesn’t feel right, to do that. to just... ghost.

it’s not exactly smart to be in the streets without his helmet on, but kuruk takes it off at just the right moment for the resistance pilot to spot him. he makes the briefest moment of eye contact with poe before ducking into the building to his left, quickly making his way up to the roof. it’s.. an unfair advantage for him, to be up here. the higher he is, the more at ease kuruk feels, it’s just.. in his nature. for this conversation, he needs every advantage he can get.

he doesn’t have a nest set up here today - he doesn’t need one, and even if he did he wouldn’t bring poe up here. he does have his rifle on his back, though. that’s one thing he doesn’t go out as a knight without. taking a deep breath, kuruk puts his helmet back on, crosses his arms over his chest and waits for poe to find his way up here. it.. might be a touch dramatic, to put the helmet back on, but he wants to make sure poe believes it. that kuruk is the wrong kind of person for him to be involved with.

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what is he doing here?

what the kriff is he doing here?!

kuruk must be losing his mind. after the way vicrul had approached him, the argument, the revelation that this could.. never work, never, kuruk should know better than this. he should know better than to fall into bed with poe, to go against his better judgement just for sex. really good sex, sure. with someone he... oh man, someone he cares for. right. but this - this can’t happen.

this can’t happen.

and the worst possible time for him to have these thoughts is when he’s silently laying in bed beside poe, wring out but still.. incredibly lost on what to do. and not just because of vicrul’s warning.

but because he knows there’s.. more, now. he’s had a sense of it since their dinner. worse since vic. kuruk’s going down a road he never anticipated he would, and now - now, he doesn’t know what he’s supposed to do. he can’t have feelings for a resistance pilot. he can’t. the knights will kill him. and poe.. well, he deserves better.

all of this is spinning round and round in kuruk’s mind at the worst possible time, and he’s torn between wanting to stay beside poe and finding an excuse to leave so he can clear his head. “didn’t you say you had somewhere to be later?”

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when it comes to missions and assignments, kuruk tends to leave his datapad unattended. it’s with him of course, but it’s silent, ignored. if the knights need him they can reach him on their comms channels. and if anyone else needs him, well - they can wait until the job is done. that’s the priority order, when it comes to missions. everything else can wait.

it’s really only a whim that kuruk even thinks to check it as he begins to pack up his sniper’s nest. the day had been.... relatively successful, all things considered. kuruk had certainly gotten the information they needed, even if they’re still having a hard time working around the ceasefire. so he’s in decent spirits - which are immediately dashed when he sees a series of messages from someone who absolutely should not be contacting him anymore.

>>>hi. >>>hey. >>>hello. >>>kuruk? >>>hi? >>>uh.... i think we should talk.

the messages are bizarre enough on their own. but the sender is what concerns him. poe. that damned pilot.

the past few weeks have been... frustrating. ever since revealing his identity to poe, showing that he’s a knight of ren and - he assumed - making it clear that the pilot should not be involved with him in any way beyond their roles in this war, kuruk has done everything possible to swallow those emotions. to lock them up tight somewhere, to ignore them. pretend they don’t exist. pretend poe, as a person, doesn’t exist. he’s just another resistance pilot to be handled one day, nothing more.

he’s certainly not the first person to see kuruk as something beyond just a knight. he’s absolutely not someone who could... make kuruk smile by doing nothing but being there and being his usual goofy self. he’s absolutely not - not someone kuruk could possibly feel something for. and yet these messages make something flip in his stomach, make. stop that.

he shouldn’t respond. really, he shouldn’t. but...

                                                     “no, we shouldn’t.”

poe needs to learn that this is a bad idea. sooner rather than later.