#thread carefully

[recordiiem]

❝ daddy welt, am i a good boy ~ .ᐣ.ᐣ ❞

[courtofcrescent]

Can the MC manipulate their ROs?

MC absolutely can, my dear Anon!

Just choose the Fake Romance path for the maximum experience™!

(MC on the Genuine Romance can manipulate the ROs too, but only in terms of certain actions. MC on this path cannot manipulate their feelings/attraction/romantic connection to said ROs)

However, do keep in mind—as MC can manipulate the ROs, the ROs can also manipulate the MC too 👀👀

Thank you for the ask! 🩶

[veloursdor]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

A part of Anakin knew that returning Mr. Kenobi’s presents to him — as their meetings had stopped on their own — would be the rightful path for the salvation of his soul, forgoing all connection with the older man as he was nothing but his friend’s father; but another part, the part that succumbed to darkness in his weakest moments, craved for Mr. Kenobi’s attention, relishing the thought that the older man thought of him even a fraction of how much Anakin thought of him. He liked the way Mr. Kenobi made him feel. Even if those feelings eventually lead him to a path of temptation and sin, Mr. Kenobi wasn’t at fault for the way Anakin’s mind worked; the older man had no way of knowing how much his words and praise affected him when they were apart. Mr. Kenobi was good, and it was Anakin’s fault — his fault alone — that the older man’s presence was such a distraction from the Light.

chapter 4 of love at first sight, at last sight, at ever and ever sight!

catholic guilt makes an appereance on the group chat!

obi-wan is manipulative and dark!

be mindful of the tags!

[vxndictive]

“...It always ends like this.”

[floatingbook]

12, 13 and 33 please 💗

Thanks love! Hope you’re doing okay in these hard times < 3. Also disclaimer I’m drinking wine right now to avoid wasting, so I might be a little disjointed or overshare.

12. Are you a “stay in pajamas all day kind"of person?

It depends of the day. Sometimes I wake up and I just want to dress for the day. Sometimes I open my eyes and I’m like “Today I stay in bed”. Sometimes all my clothes are packed and I only kept pajamas out, so pajamas it is by force of things.

13. What time did you go to sleep last night?

A little past midnight. My brother has been giving me manga recommendations that fit insanely well my personality* (I guess he was actually paying attention at some point?) and so I’ve been reading. A lot. RIP depression I guess (not true, but one can hope).

33. Which room in your house do you spend the most time in?

My "house” only has one room that is mine. I do have a bathroom but if you don’t have a bathtub, how are you supposed to spend a lot of time in your bathroom? So most of the time I’m laying on my bed or sitting on the windowsill. 

*I feel the urge to point out that I feel like “personality” should have two n, like in personnalité. This is distressing me, and that’s why you should not drink alcohol when you’re on antidepressants, ladies. (Also the h in alcohol is a disgrace).

[inpursuitofconciousness]

At my first Bible study this year I prayed for discernment, discernment in my relationships with people (professionally and personally). I wanted the ability to recognize unseriousness from afar and the courage to say no without over-explaining. What I’ve come to understand is that my discernment and my boundaries are deeply intertwined. I’m still not sure which comes first; whether weak boundaries affect discernment or a lack of discernment erodes boundaries but I know they move together.

Yesterday though, I noticed a shift.

Someone reached out to me on Instagram about working on a project. From the beginning the communication was vague there was no clear client, no clear scope, no concrete direction or at least he withheld them if there were. It felt like a red flag but I briefly rationalized it as self preservation/caution on his part, given his role as an agent. We moved the conversation to WhatsApp, and every few days he’d send me a project I’d worked on, asking about my role in it. I’m clearly a photographer, yet I found myself repeatedly clarifying what should have already been obvious. Some of them were video and photo projects so again, I excused the ignorance.

He then shared another project of mine. His client wanted the look and feel of the images that eventually made it onto billboards; images that were not mine, as another photographer handled that portion of the work. He liked my version and wanted to work with me but the client specifically wanted that feel. On hearing this I told him it was okay if we didn’t collaborate on this particular project and suggested that another project might be a better fit for both of us.

He then asked me to introduce him to the team that worked on that project. I hesitated at first because there was a quiet unease in losing out and still offering support, but I made the introduction anyway. When the email went unanswered, the dynamic shifted and suddenly it became a situation where he was subtly trying to recruit me to help find solutions for a project he still hadn’t confirmed I was even a part of. He later suggested adding me to a WhatsApp group with other photographers he was considering and then it happened- I said no. I told him I’d prefer to wait for confirmation before proceeding.

This may seem small and might be considered the wrong move but for me, it wasn’t.

In the past, the mere possibility of work would send me into a familiar spiral I'd be eager, anxious, desperate to do everything right and beating myself up if it didn't come through. I would try to prove my worth before it was ever questioned, driven by a quiet fear that I didn’t deserve the opportunity in the first place. It fed into my need to be liked, to be chosen, to be validated. My partner at the time will then be left with the work of nursing my feelings from the self loathing to the "what Ifs" that followed afterward. A rather exhausting cycle. Sigh.

This time, I didn’t chase and I didn’t panic. When he repeatedly “confirmed” interest over text only to edit or retract it moments later, I simply told him to return when things were certain. Maybe chasing would have gotten me the job on second thought I genuinely doubt it. But what mattered more was that I didn’t abandon myself. I recognized early on that this situation might not work out and even if it did it would require me to set clear boundaries something I truly struggle with. That knowledge and acceptance alone felt liberating.

This morning, I listened to a YouTube video the psychology of self-transformation, and one idea stayed with me: transformation doesn’t always mean changing who you are. Sometimes, it means integration; learning to recognize and work with the parts of yourself you’ve tried to suppress.

For a long time, I believed I needed fixing and in wanting to become someone else, I ignored parts of myself I didn’t like instead of understanding them. But transformation begins with knowing, and honestly for a while, I simply didn’t know myself. My ex asked me a question when our relationship was coming to an end " did our relationship just happen to you?" At the time I was hurt by that because there were a lot of conscious decisions I made in our time together. Loving her being one of the many. But I also know now that multiple truths can exist. There were also a lot of unconscious decisions, decisions that if I had made with the presence of mind that I am now intentionally trying to develop, would have turned out differently.

There’s a level of consciousness required for real change, and I haven't reached it yet. I still don’t fully know who I am and honestly I still feel very lost. But now it feels like learning a slow, painful craft like weaving a cloth by hand. The first stitch is finally in. The rest will follow. There will be pricks, mistakes, and moments of doubt, but there's also a silent trust that what becomes of this process will be beautiful.

[i-have-insane-that-i-am-paper]

Okay. News flash.

Just because I don't answer in five damin seconds you send me msg it doesn't mean I hate you/don't like you.

People who talk to me know that I'm usually pretty fast in responding, but guess what?

I have my own life too. I have shit I need to take care of.

I'm not constantly by my phone waiting for someone to message me.

I will answer first chance I get.

And I am sorry.

But it is far more disrespectful to me if you aren't giving me your full attention when I'm talking, than if I wait for a few hours and then talk to you when you are free.

I never want to hurt someone I care about with my lack of interest in what they are saying.

I may have, but it never was my intention.

So yes.

I won't answer to you if I'm doing something because I have enough of respect for you to make sure you have my full undivided attention when speaking to me, and I have enough of respect for myself to make sure you know the boundaries.

[chaotikanvas]

RED STRING OF FATE???????? Please tell us more!👀

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Well, it's a fic I started based on an initial concept paper-lillypie put out there a while back! Basically, the red string of fate turns out to be a bit of a trickster and links unexpected people who, despite this, always end up working together!

So in this concept there's a reader that happens to be tied to the DCA during one of their visits in the Pizze Plex. Problem: they are very unnerved by animatronics, robots, and doll like stuff in general. It's not an extreme phobia because they can stand being around that stuff for a while, but it's still upsetting and the longer they go, the more exhausting it is. And now they are unable to leave the Pizza Plex. At all. Fun times as you can imagine!

Meanwhile the DCA is left to deal with this very unhappy person that is now forced to be around them, getting in the way of their routine.

So yeah, lots of shenanigans, tough conversations and eventual understanding will happen eventually!

I only have one chapter out and one other post about it but hopefully I'll get to update soon! ^_^ (I did try to think about all the implications of this situation so lots to explore haha)