fear/anxiety around driving honestly doesn’t get talked about enough, but it’s super common!! I didn’t get my license till I was 19 because of anxiety, and I know plenty of people who didn’t get theirs until their mid to late 20s or later, if they did at all - it’s also okay to just not drive, if that’s what works best for you, but it’s also definitely possible to work through it to a point where you can drive if that’s what you want. either way I hope it goes well for you 💖
I FORGOT TO ANSWER THIS WHEN YOU SENT IT BUT. THANK YOU THAT MEANS A LOT AJSHFCGVD<333
max @tiinykaiju was just super excited about my tags on this post, so of course... i would never disappoint my friends...
“Jon, wait, I think I can hear—”
“You can’t.” Jon keeps walking, his fingers curled around Martin’s. “Or—well, maybe you can hear them. But you won’t be able to find them, no matter how long you look.”
Martin glances around the fog, trying to find a shadow, a shape, any indication of where that distant sobbing might be coming from. “But that’s, Jon, you said you can’t know hypotheticals, right? Maybe I can, I’m the, the watcher of this place, right? Just—”
“No, Martin, that’s what this place is. You could... See them, if you tried. But you can’t find them. I know you want to help, but... just trust me. We have to keep moving.”
“But—I mean, can’t I at least try? Just for a bit? Since, you know, time isn’t real and all that, it won’t hurt to look, and maybe if someone’s looking for them—”
“We have to keep moving.” Jon’s voice resonates, and it takes a moment for Martin to even realize he’s fallen into step behind him.
He pulls away, not quite disentangling their fingers, but forcing Jon to stop if he doesn’t want them to get separated.
Jon stops.
“Jon. Don’t... don’t use your Ceaseless Watcher voice on me, please.”
“I...” He pinches the bridge of his nose with his free hand. “I’m sorry. I just... I don’t want us to be here any longer than we need to in order to pass through it. And I definitely don’t want you wandering around in the fog, looking for the lost and forgotten.”
“Why not? It can’t hurt.”
“It can.” Jon tugs on his hand, insistent. “It can. We need to move, Martin, please.”
“Can you at least tell me—”
“The longer you stay here, the more it becomes a part of you,” Jon says, words fast, clipped. Not quite panicked, but... “Not just your domain, you. Like Jordan Kennedy. He’ll never be free of the tunnels, and you...”
He turns, leaning into Martin’s arms, resting his head against his chest for just a few precious seconds. “Martin. Please.”
Martin is silent for a moment, then wraps an arm around Jon and steps forward. “Okay. Come on, the border can’t be far.”
since you usually have good zodiac opinions I gotta ask: any libras in the archive? spare libra?
i sure have strong feelings about libra sun/aqua moon gerry specifically!
"The combination of your Sun sign and your Moon sign produces a personality that is a delight in any social circle. You have much to offer because you are so extroverted and outgoing. Not a particularly deep person, you are sought out and popular for your sympathy and warm, yet detached, understanding. Never one to get really deeply involved with other people and their problems, you are, nonetheless, unselfish and don't dwell on personal matters either. This combination blends the emotional balance, courtesy, and friendliness of Libra with a healthy portion of originality, ingenuity, and independence brought from Aquarius.
You have splendid foresight, natural refinement, and an inspirational outlook; a happy and optimistic personality. High ideals and good taste in all things enable you to develop a very fine type of mentality, with a strong and broad social sense. Yours is a great ability to judge human character and a keen insight into human nature. You are alert to original or ingenious ideas and can use these to considerable advantage in your work, profession, or business. Sociability, as an important aspect of your nature, can aid in your advancement and opportunity in life. This is never a superficial sociability; you are sincere and open in your approach to other people, revealing kindliness of heart and genuine interest in others.
You possess strong and sincere urges to be of service to others. You also possess a good aesthetic sense, and a possible flair for creative expression. Keen intellect, with a strong sense of proportion or balance, assures that you will be successful in life. Your sincere friendliness and sociability encourage willingness to serve the public and to deal in a friendly and pleasant way, even with strangers."
also @avatarofthebeholding found this! if you can’t read it the pdf is here.
it just feels Right!
next stuff taken from this site:
“These people enjoy being of service to others, and often selflessly offer their help even to people they don’t know. They never seem to have any difficulties in doing anything when someone else asks them to, and that is what makes these people prone to being used and manipulated by some people. Regardless of that, these people don’t seem to hold any grudge against anyone, and they quickly forget any insults and mistreatments. It is kind and noble of them, but often gets them in similar situations.”
he gives off the vibe of just. he’s so easygoing y’know i can’t exactly count his trauma responses to his viciously abusive mother as like... the baseline for his entire personality and how he navigates the world on a WHOLE? he’s a ray of SUNSHINE and not the woobie kind just the kind with a soft but quick sense of humor and a general lightness to him that???? speaks to not wanting to hold grudges and dwell on whatever, but at the same time, the trauma conditioning did kind of put that there and create a situation where he’s prone to being used by other people, too. it blows!
he just seems. like. for all of his damage and the hell he goes through he’s shockingly naturally balanced and well-rounded? he just has a natural equillibrium and is so generally calm mannered it just, aaaaa.
“These people have a strong sense of community and helping other people, which doesn’t allow them to focus on themselves and their needs. They are the happiest when they make others happy, which is why they often find themselves involved in some humanitarian cause, saving the planet, the nature and animal life, people’s lives, etc. They are often beyond common human traits like egotism and self-centeredness.”
also there’s this site because it gives gems such as:
“One of the biggest challenges they may face is adapting their weirdness to reality. [...] Libra Sun Aquarius Moon people are among the oddest Libras in the zodiac.” and “It’s impossible to ever tell them what to do because they hate being controlled.”
gerry’s a weird guy. he just is. and we LOVE that for him!!!!
and also this chunk:
“Libra Sun Aquarius Moon natives will always stay true to oneself, no matter what the majority thinks and does. They are bold and they prefer to live in the moment rather than to plan in advance.
When it comes to individuality, there’s no one to know this word better than them. They have integrity and they become very defensive when someone wants them to do something dishonorable.
Supportive and always with a good idea up their sleeve, others will turn to them in their most difficult moments. And they’ll be sympathetic because they like being the shoulder on which everyone cries.
Empathetic and in the meantime detached, these natives would give a hand with any kind of problem, not expecting something in return. Because they’re pragmatic and realistic, they will make sound judgments and always find ingenious solutions.
Their ability to think outside the box is very useful in crises. Their Moon makes them a little bit cold and unattached, but the fact that they are Libras changes it all, as this sign is friendly and open to communication.”
so Woohoo!
viv also said: “And “happy and optimistic personality”/“sociability”/being “friendly and pleasant...even with strangers”...that all absolutely KILLS me bc so much of his personality is DIRECTLY at odds with the world he’s forced to grow up in; so much of that friendliness and idealism gets buried deep beneath the surface bc it HAS to be if he’s going to survive...UGHHH *cries*”
like. yeah! exactly that! that’s his basic nature, i think. okay i’m just. AHH i could paste from a thousand sites but you get it jGVHBKN.
sorry for the reblog spam - I’m about a day and a half into tentatively identifying as femme (still learning a lot about it but it feels Right) & I have had a rough evening & this blog is really healing my soul rn 💖
aaaaaaaaaa don’t apologize! creating a safe, healing space was my biggest goal when I made this blog, so I’m really happy it’s been helping you. <3
I haven’t officially identified as femme for very long either (I’d say it’s been several months now, maybe a year...?) and sometimes (a LOT of times) I get days where I spiral into worrying if I’m “doing it right,” or if I’m worthy of calling myself a femme at all...especially because I was a sapphic/questioning lesbian who used to think it was just about dressing “girly” before I started actually learning about it. so some days my anxious ADD brain will be reeeally mean about that and tell me that my past ignorance means my present love for the butch/femme dynamic and culture doesn’t count.
doesn’t matter how much I want to love and support butches, doesn’t matter how much I want to be an embodiment of love and beauty and safety, doesn’t matter how much the word “femme” feels like home after learning about it...according to my dumb brain, I Am Disqualified And FAKING Because I Didn’t Know Everything Right Away. (or Because I’m Too Sheltered/Closeted. or Because I Pronounced Femme As “Fem-ee” That One Time And Wow I Still Feel Really Stupid. or Because I Don’t Agree With Other Butch/Femme Lesbians On Every Single Thing Ever And Therefore I’m A Bad Femme.)
and that’s total BS.
so whatever you’re going through right now, I want you to know that it’s okay. this is okay. and if you doubt yourself, you’re not alone and it doesn’t mean you’re faking or “unworthy” of femmeness at all. you are welcome here and safe here, and if the femme identity feels like home to you? then you probably feel that way for a reason. embrace it. <3
reblog-spam as much as you want to lol. you’re doing just fine. and so am I. :)
tiinykaiju replied to your post: i’m getting close to done with the final chapter...
(meant as encouragement & not pressure but) I have read the first seven chapters SO MANY TIMES, and “a steady hand” too, you’re such a talented writer ����
thank yoooou. hopefully i will have updates soon. “i (don’t) come to you” before my trip but “a steady hand” prob after.
