#tma confession

[welcome-listeners-to-night-vale]

notebook!!!!!

[hellostarposts]

Episodes 19 and 20

I can't stop myself from continuing to listen while I attempt to recall all the previous episodes. Also, it only makes sense to combine these two episodes since its technically the same statement. Episode 19 Confession I

R is the friend who got me into this show btw. And no, I do not care if there are grammatical errors, I’m not being graded so why does it matter.

Me: Is the priest important?

R: Priest, no. Location, yes.

Me: Noted. I don’t remember what they said

R: It’s Hilltop House

Me: Many thanks

Might actually be bullington road????

Father Edwin Burroughs has a demon up his ass. Won’t let him say Jesus or pray.

Butchered exorcism. Priest getting consequences? Emersion broken.

The nurse should’ve lost her job, just my opinion.

An alcoholic priest if preferable to you know what other priests did.

OH SHIT. this links back to bleeding tree

Possession feels like being burned

Dude ripping out a tree is nothing when you just got a demon up your ass.

That last line is some whiplash. What do you meeeeeeean he ate their skin???? Honestly, man deserves the demon, I don’t like religion. 

Episode 20 Desecrated Host II

“Claimed demonic possession” go off Johnathan 

“I could not deny that there is a demon in my ass”

Don't know the significance of it being the genesis. I am not researching it.

I have to admit that I do really like how being possessed is being described. So much better than the standard “I’m just a passenger in my own body”.

Confession is not going to help Edwin. But protecting him through the privacy rules of it is a smart idea. 

WAS HE CONFESSING TO THE DEMON

I can see why this just looks like unmedicated schizophrenia

More eye imagery. 

That is such good religious horror. And the fact that he fully thought the flesh was communion is so good. I fully thought it was some cult shit but I like the twist so much better.

At least he was wearing an apron during the murder. I love me some unreliable narrator.

End of episode thoughts, I still think that there's a cult who wanted Edwin to get possessed. All because of the fact that the helper had agency and how else would the yellow garb get magically delivered. Additionally, it is likely that he could have been drugged with hallucinogens which caused him to be more suggestible. Which would explain the whole church service and face eating. Not as fun as saying he’s got a demon up his ass though.

Explained the above to R. Not drugs, not really a demon but on the right track. If its a parasite I’m going to fucking riot. I HATE them so much.

[morbidvampyr]

so here’s a tma confession... for the first few weeks of listening to the podcast, before I heard sasha’s voice, I had somehow gotten it into my head that sasha was a just. a guy. like, sasha can be a guys name in some cultures (i think russian but don’t quote me on that). anyways, for some reason, I was convinced. I don’t know why, i have no idea how this concept entered my head, but when i heard sasha’s voice for the first time, i was just So Confused because i thought that she would just be a guy!!

[welcome-listeners-to-night-vale]

It won't let me say the L- the Lo-

What are you looking for here? The tolling of that horrid bell?

[therecordingroom]

hi, this might be a long one, and you said it’s for us Magnus Archives folks to get stuff off our chests, so, yea

sorry, kinda venty, but anyways

I’m Jon. Like, I know I’m Jon, but I’m also Jon in a different way than other Jons are Jon. It’s more like Jon is me rather than I am Jon, if that makes sense. Don’t get me wrong, we’re still the same person, Martin has definitely rubbed off on me, but yea.

I’ve been kinda having trouble with reality lately? Still paranoid, that hasn’t changed, but I remember that statement about philosophical zombies and can’t help but feel that people around me feel like that. People online feel more real than those around me. I’m not like, chronically online, I think it’s because I’m more open to my online friends about who I am than I am to those I know in person, but they also feel safer in a sense but only because I don’t actually know them in person, so it creates a façade of trust. They don’t know me, so I can trust them. More like, they can’t hurt me, so I can trust them.

Then there’s the matter of unbelonging. The painful, utter loneliness of not fitting anywhere. I wonder if this is how I used to feel. I can’t remember anything, so all I have is the window from this universe into mine, or at least my old one. I don’t think I belonged there either. Perhaps that’s what made me a good subject for the Eye, my painful uniqueness and difference from everyone else. I sometimes wonder why I wasn’t chosen by the Spiral or even the Stranger as I don’t think I was meant to exist, but then the incessant questioning of, well, everything reminds me. I hate uncertainty. I mean, it’s obvious because of what I am, but I truly and deeply fear it. Perhaps even over my other fears. I miss having someone. I miss Martin. Maybe that’s why I feel so lonely. Is this what the Lonely felt like? Sometimes I long for the Archives, even if they were truly horrible. This reality just… it feels too quiet. Too normal. Too wrong. There’s always been something wrong with me that makes me an outlier here, I just can’t pinpoint it. I find myself longing for the Archives so deeply and maybe even so often and it hurts. I can’t remember things. Not really. If you asked me what I did yesterday, I don’t think I could tell you most of the time. I don’t know. And that’s what’s scary, I don’t know

Statement ends, I guess

(P.S. I know I sound a little out there but yea, I think I’m ok? I’m not a danger to myself, but the paranoia has really been bad, but I am fine I swear)

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[bonesbugsandballads]

TMA confession time:The first time I listened to MAG 86,I didn’t realise Melanie was saying “marker” to mark the statement beginning and ending.I thought she’d found a marker pen and was just.Announcing it.