#tmi stuff

[shaydh]

The curse of being a terminally horny aroace 😩

[capitainecorbeau]

Well, it was the wheat/gluten. I'm having normal consistant bowel movements. Now to figure out how sensitive I am, like if I eat pizza every once in a while will it kill my gut with hammers or can I have a little wheat/gluten as a treat sometimes

I'm gonna ask my gp for advice but honestly I'm starting to think she might not be good for much besides renewing my prescriptions and sharing weirdly personal details about her life. (Not that other gps I interacted with were much better mind you. Doctors kinda suck. At least she's isn't condescending like the majority of her colleagues)

[katherine-mcnamara-archive]

Concept: For two weeks straight, Jace yells "yeet" at the top of his lungs whenever he throws a blade at a demon. This confuses the demons to no end and irritates Alec also to no end. Clary finds this hilarious

YEEEEEET Oh my god this has me laughing uncontrollably though. Like imagine everyone’s face. Clary would be dying laughing yet incredibly proud. Alec would be....well alec and it just encourages Jace more. But also everyone admits it’s an amazing way to stun the demon’s into being like WTF? and give them the advantage.

[gryphonfingers]

hey anyone else taking Ritalin just absolutely go ham when you drink caffeine

Like holy shit why does my heart feel like it’s going to fall out of my chest

Hello

[lonicera-caprifolium]

TMI Tuesday for danny boy DOES HE TOP OR BOTTOM

he mostly prefers to bottom. :D

[ishouldhaveaspellforthis-blog]

On writing about Billy’s sexuality in the ‘80s.

Things that are important to note about LGBT+ issues in the ‘80s.

1. Differentiation of romantic and sexual orientation was not as commonly used. The term “demisexual” simply wasn’t used until relatively recently. Thus, despite the fact that my version of him might identify as homoromantic demisexual in a modern setting, he simply identifies as gay in the RP.

2. “Queer” was still generally considered a slur so I may refer to Billy (and myself) as queer, but he wouldn’t have reclaimed the term the ‘80s. “Homosexual” was also considered a less-than-positive term as well because it had pathological connotations until relatively recently, so I would imagine that Billy wouldn’t use it. RE: my Billy’s Filipino heritage, he would not identify with the term “bakla” because the term is generally associated with feminine-presenting AMAB people, even if it is used to describe gay men too. Billy is also very Americanized in the way that many first-generation Americans were during that time were so the term might not even be on his radar.

3. Billy is very lucky to have been born and raised in New York and to have the parents he does. In the ‘80s, New York had one of the most visible gay scenes in the world “A Chorus Line” debuted on Broadway in 1975 and I would imagine that Billy’s seen it. Even if the representation was relatively one-dimensional, representation was there. I based Rebecca’s story and personality on my Bubbe’s and my Bubbe’s experience as a holocaust survivor made her very very sensitive and opposed to any kind of profiling or bigotry. Even in the ‘80s, my Bubbe was very  accepting of any and all sexualities, so I’ve decided that Rebecca is too. The research I’ve done on the Manila Jewish community suggests that aside from American influence, there wasn’t particularly overt homophobia (read: what homophobia there is in the Philippines as a whole exists mostly because colonizers ruin everything) so I can’t imagine that Jeff would be too opposed. 

4. And finally, the elephant in the room here: AIDS. This was an era where if you were HIV+, you died and there was very little information about it. Some people were still calling it GRID. I play Billy as knowing that HIV is sexually and intravenously transmitted and that it’s common among gay men, but little else. That said, Billy is hopeless sweaty virgin nerd who has more of a wistful puppy-love approach to finding potential partners and he feels a personal responsibility to his parents not to do drugs (Rebecca probably had the “I didn’t survive the Nazis so that you could could waste your life with heroin!” talk with him before he even knew what heroin was) so he doesn’t consider himself to be someone who’s at risk. What few other gay people he might know probably were though, so he may have some trauma-by-association.

[lexcellence]

quite frankly the whole unwanted spontaneous way too long boner thing should be illegal after puberty like seriously body i am working on spreadsheets m, not any of the multitude of inevitable "spread" or "sheet" puns that come to mind, you've had years to get this shit under control

[mako-tachi]

every once in a while thoughts of my ex from years ago creep into my head. it really sets off this crazy chain of thoughts about how fundamentally unlovable i am and i am really struggling with this loneliness, but incapability to bond with someone like i did with him. dating people is miserable, talking to people in any romantic sense makes me sick, and it really has me sitting here like was the trauma that bad that i can't connect with anyone ever again? i'm just obsessing over fictional characters because that's "safe" and it pretty much feels like the only thing i have actual emotional attachment to.