#to d

[hahamemer]

[systemshoutouts]

Shoutout to N. and D., our only non-dormant human alters, for having to deal with this zoo on the inside and still caring about us

[daykinking]

I RLYY WENT FR9M 0 TO 1110000000 REAK 1UICK

[beetlebeetleblack]

My friend, who has lain 

face towards mine, hands embraced 

and said he loves me, that 

i will always have a home 

in his chest, i know 

your black stubble, the

bend of your neck, you in

lemon yellow and pink, how you

hold your hands, your

laugh (that specific one

through half closed lips that

has entered my lexicon)

and, too, your

arms crossed across your 

chest, shoulders caved in

your everyday gray 

dread, trudging through the

narrative of your life 

as you stare at the screen, lower 

lip that I touch gently with 

my fingers 

expressive and 

vulnerable 

I know you, see you plummeting

Through space, floating

In empty rooms full of

People caught in the rush of life 

I wish I could hold you 

in my hands like a small creature 

Extraordinary as

you are, folded arms, stubble 

downturned eyes and all 

Let you see

how every line of your speech and 

body demands 

gentleness 

delicate as any living thing 

beloved, uncomprehending.

[anonym0us-asked]

i think im moving on... i dont think you consider us friends anymore or really want to talk to me which i understand so i think its time for me to stop hoping we'll somehow reconnect or something.. but i hope that you have a good life even if im no longer in it. im sorry that i wasnt a better friend, that i didnt make more of an effort, that i didnt reach out to you long ago <3

[anonym0us-asked]

i hope youll want to be friends with me again

[anonym0us-asked]

i think im going to reach out to you tomorrow and be honest this time.. if we still dont reconnect then ill have my answer but i cant keep ruining any chance for me to have friends bc someone convinced me i wasnt worthy of them