anon

Anon - they/them I am aroace, do not assume my posts are romantic unless specifically tagged as such any asks submitted by other people will be tagged #answered, posts not tagged with this are by me only

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can i fix this? is there still time?

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no, you can’t. we just have to find a way to not let it destroy us now..

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you couldn’t even let me look at the stars

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when did i start dreading your messages?

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i dreamt of you. sometimes i wonder if you dream of me. if you think about me.

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can i fix this? is there still time?

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why do i miss you?

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why did i believe them? why do i still believe them? maybe its all my fault

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i think i'm a bad friend

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am i horrible person? i think i must be

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you told me you wished we were closer yet continue to never talk to me?

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i think im moving on... i dont think you consider us friends anymore or really want to talk to me which i understand so i think its time for me to stop hoping we'll somehow reconnect or something.. but i hope that you have a good life even if im no longer in it. im sorry that i wasnt a better friend, that i didnt make more of an effort, that i didnt reach out to you long ago <3

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what if they're all right and I'm the problem ?

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why am i never anyones first choice

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i hope youll want to be friends with me again

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i think im going to reach out to you tomorrow and be honest this time.. if we still dont reconnect then ill have my answer but i cant keep ruining any chance for me to have friends bc someone convinced me i wasnt worthy of them

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"Will somebody be there for me when all my friends have left?

Even if I'm undone in end"

~ 'Petals on the Moon' Wasia Project

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is it pathetic that i still think about you even though i havent seen you in three years? even though, maybe, we werent very close of friends after all? even though we've only talked (texted) twice this year and i initiated it both times? is it pathetic that i both daydream and dream at night of ways we could become friends again, maybe even closer than before? that i somehow miss you in increasing amounts? that i cant bring myself to believe you when you say you miss me? that i cant let you go? that im realizing i may, somewhat, platonically love you.. or maybe not yet but nearly? that i doubt you even think of me and yet, despite my social anxiety and the fact that i normally never post on social media much, im anonymously posting about you for anyone to read?

maybe its not just about you... maybe its also about the other friendships that i couldve had if i could simply trust that people could like me. if i could like myself some more.... maybe its about the general concept of a nice close friendship, but i think its mainly about you. i think if i had you in my life again, things might be just that little bit better. i think i need your help, maybe, to be a bit better. i wonder sometimes, if you might need me just that little bit as well. i see you post.. not so kind things about yourself and i just want to help you feel better but i worry i would just make your life worse, that you dont need me after all and i just think that other people think of me more than they do..

lol how pathetic am i?