#to gemini

[thehonorarywinter]

dear gemini, i had a dream about you and how it would feel to have your warm whisper breath on my forehead again and i woke to cold sheets and cold toes and fingertips grasping for the other side of the too big too empty bed- what im trying to say is you are my sunlight and i hope you’re able to fall in love with my freckle constellations and my day-dreamer’s palms- no, what im trying to say is i hope you can ignore the shards of my heart that stick to the sides of my daisy-picker’s ribs- no, what im trying to say is i dont love you yet but oh, god, could i

leo

[thehonorarywinter]

dear gemini, it’s way too early in the morning and i’d love to say you feel so lovely by my side but the truth is you don’t. you are way too warm pressed against my body and you are snoring in my ear and you are drooling on my shoulder. you are uncomfortable this early in the morning. you are messy and you make the worst faces when you sleep. but this is how i know you are the one because i can’t help but find everything that has woken me up so incredibly early- i can’t help but find it so endearing. even if my arm is numb from you laying on it and i will be tired all day. you are beautifully messy.

leo

[thehonorarywinter]

to gemini, they tell you to wear your hair long, your fingernails black, your teeth sharp and hidden. wolves hiding in a sheep’s clothing, a sheep’s old worn out skinny jeans, a sheep’s ‘goodnight’s and 'i love you’s, hiding in the tiny space between our bodies as i kiss you pressed to the sink. i never thought i could love you so gently when all you ever thought of me as was prey. so go ahead, rip my throat out. i’ll let you get my wool dirty.

leo

[thehonorarywinter]

to gemini, i am one step closer to you, but i am one step further from your heart. i feel like every time i see you, i realise how much i love you, and every time i leave i realise exactly why i didn’t before. you are a never ending circle of you-had-to-be-there humour and smiles that leave you wondering what the joke was. was i the joke this time?

leo

[thehonorarywinter]

dear gemini, we broke the swingset in the park where you had your first kiss. do you remember that? i hate fighting the only person who has ever understood my desire to fly. we used to jump off once the swing got as high as we could get it. do you remember that? breaking your arm once you fell just for the split second feeling of having wings? i miss that. i don't know if i miss you.

leo