#tobbocomplaining

[toboe4ever]

Oh, busuu can make your writing into japanese characters.

But i still can't for my life make complete japanese sentences yet sjdgdjfkgsdjkfg *cries*

[toboe4ever]

*looks at microsoft word in my taskbar and sobs silently*

[toboe4ever]

the majority of teens around here are pretty much always on the phone talking with their friends and lovers

and here i am with a phone list consisting of only a few calls from my mom, some dude who called wrong, and phone sellers..

i wish i could be more socially skilled... TvT

[toboe4ever]

Literally almost considering chopping my fucking legs off..

No but seriously, restless legs syndrome is probably the most hellish shit i've ever had in my life. I can't keep my legs still for a second, or it feels like Satan is having a night-rave with Crowley inside them. And the worst thing is that i've been living on between 4 and 6 hours of sleep for over a week now because of this. 

How the fuck am i supposed to make it to Friday without losing my goddamned mind????

[toboe4ever]

'oh are you sad, try listening to happy songs'

yes.. i tried and every happy song just seem to go 'you are never alone just look at how many friends you have' and 'your friends are there for you'  and just simply FRIENDZZZZ and i wouldn't say that really works for someone who's pretty much entirely lost contact with every person she's ever known that's not family due to her overly crappy skills at comunication

[toboe4ever]

if i dont get sleep medication that works soon, i might have to become an utter asshole in order to avoid people stamping me as a freak.

because a longer time of weird sleep patterns just broadens my autistic traits to the level of 'barely even socially functional' and the worst part is the fact that i'm completely aware when i do something odd, still i can't act act normal.

and i'd much rather be viewed as an asshole than a someone mentally fucked up.

(nothing bad meant towards autistic people, i just mean that people who dont know shit about autism just think of us kinda high-functional but still visibly autistic  as insane and fucked up rather than socially handicapped.. and i hate it.)

[toboe4ever]

well, how wonderful.

i finally fell asleep after ages of trying, just to fUCKING WAKE UP 3 HOURS LATER AND NOT BE ABLE TO FALL ASLEEP AGAIN GHBDDHJLMJFDSEGBJHGBHV

WHY IS MY SLEEP ALWAYS SO FUCKED UP???

[toboe4ever]

can windy things please stop happening outside my window

its making my room cold