#tobbocomplains

[toboe4ever]

Oh, busuu can make your writing into japanese characters.

But i still can't for my life make complete japanese sentences yet sjdgdjfkgsdjkfg *cries*

[toboe4ever]

but why the fuck is the Ipren pills so fucking big like what the fuck were they thinking??

"The majority of the people on this earth is horrible at swallowing pills, i know, lETS MAKE OUR PILLS BIGGER THAN A NORMAL PERSON COULD POSSIBLY CONVENIENTLY SWALLOW'

MY THROAT IS FUCKING CRAMPING AND HURTING BECAUSE OF THIS SHIT 

[toboe4ever]

the majority of teens around here are pretty much always on the phone talking with their friends and lovers

and here i am with a phone list consisting of only a few calls from my mom, some dude who called wrong, and phone sellers..

i wish i could be more socially skilled... TvT

[toboe4ever]

Literally almost considering chopping my fucking legs off..

No but seriously, restless legs syndrome is probably the most hellish shit i've ever had in my life. I can't keep my legs still for a second, or it feels like Satan is having a night-rave with Crowley inside them. And the worst thing is that i've been living on between 4 and 6 hours of sleep for over a week now because of this. 

How the fuck am i supposed to make it to Friday without losing my goddamned mind????

[toboe4ever]

'oh are you sad, try listening to happy songs'

yes.. i tried and every happy song just seem to go 'you are never alone just look at how many friends you have' and 'your friends are there for you'  and just simply FRIENDZZZZ and i wouldn't say that really works for someone who's pretty much entirely lost contact with every person she's ever known that's not family due to her overly crappy skills at comunication

[toboe4ever]

In reality, my only escape is through fictional stories and art, and it's not even a complete escape. Life can still reach me however it wants.

The only non-temporary escape would be death, but i care too much about how it would affect others, and also i still got this annoying and completely illogical little thing in me thinking things can actually get better..

life i shit

life can fuck itself in the ass with a branch

[toboe4ever]

if i dont get sleep medication that works soon, i might have to become an utter asshole in order to avoid people stamping me as a freak.

because a longer time of weird sleep patterns just broadens my autistic traits to the level of 'barely even socially functional' and the worst part is the fact that i'm completely aware when i do something odd, still i can't act act normal.

and i'd much rather be viewed as an asshole than a someone mentally fucked up.

(nothing bad meant towards autistic people, i just mean that people who dont know shit about autism just think of us kinda high-functional but still visibly autistic  as insane and fucked up rather than socially handicapped.. and i hate it.)

[toboe4ever]

Spent pretty much the whole day at my grannys place, waiting for the vet to call and tell us they're done operating one of our cats eye lids which had gotten cut open in a fight.

They said they'd be done in the afternoon... guess when they were done? 

Sometime past 9 pm.

And we left him there like 10:30 am.

Like sure, i totally understand if there's more urgent patients which they need to take care of first, but they could at least have CALLED US and SAID that it might take a bit longer than expected.

I mean as far as we knew something could have happened to our cat or something, i mean they weren't saying ANYTHING!!!????

It's fucking incredible..