Aug 3, 2016
in what i can remember of my life there is no happiness.
anonymous writer
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in what i can remember of my life there is no happiness.
anonymous writer
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in what i can remember of my life there is no happiness.
anonymous writer
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I won't feel free until I am free from my own mind
anonymous writer
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Why Am I Like This
I started showing symptoms of anxiety when I finished my freshman year of high school and now today I have graduated from college with my nursing degree. Anxiety screws up my life so much. Everyone laughs at me when I have to speak or read in front of the class because I stutter over every f***ing word. I smile it off but they don’t know how it kills me inside and that I go home and cry myself to sleep. My family makes fun of me when we go out because it’s difficult to make eye contact with people and when I order food or pay at the register I freak out and fumble over what I am going to do. I don’t know why I am different than my sister, we are identical twins and she makes friends so easily. This anxiety makes it so hard to make friends, the only friend I have is hundreds of miles away from me. Anxiety makes it seem like I am pushing people away and I can’t help it, I want to have friends but I need alone time too. I wish I could initiate conversations and keep conversations going but I can’t. Maybe since school is over it’ll get better. I hope so. I have had thoughts of harming myself but have never gone beyond thinking since it would tear my family apart. They do t understand that I am hurting since its internal. I just want to get better and have people to talk to.
anonymous writer
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This is my video on how you can deal with anxiety or social anxiety at school.
Jacqui Poirier
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These aren’t just 3AM thoughts.
Jacqui Poirier
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it's wanting too badly to want to be alive
anonymous writer
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Is it bad I want to stay on the safe side?
Jacqui Poirier
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