Are these technically canon since it's my Selfship?
I just put headcanons bc I didn't know what else to title this, and I needed somewhere to put these so I'm just putting it here.
Warnings: unhealthy codependency, mentions of mental illness, toxic relationship dynamics, they make each other better and worse. Stalking, enabling unhealthy behavior,
Divider creds: @/angeliicide
Ts is in depth I got categories in this bitch and everything
Personality. ‧₊˚ ⋅
🎀 Transmasc butch Lesbian Toby
🎀 Non-binary femme Lesbian Mira
🎀 Toby is a major asshole if I'm being real, tends to be vulgar and crude he will piss you off to no fucking end.
🎀 Tends to be nicer to Mira, but he's still a jerk tbh
🎀 Major dork, says corny shit all the time he tends to be gullible with people he trusts, believing the most outrageous shit because it falls from their mouth.
🎀 He's a fucking Geek. He has all the stars wars movies on dvd and vhs, DC and Marvel fan, loved the x men growing up
🎀 Mira is loud she's usually bubbly, vulgar, like extremely. She's a bit ditzy, tends to be very scatterbrained. Her behavior tends to be rather erratic at times.
🎀 She's rude to pretty much everyone, she's sweeter to Toby.
🎀 She's kinda... Dumb...
🎀 Also a major Geek, she has several tmnt dvd box sets, also loves DC and Marvel, Batgirl and Harley Quinn were her favorites
Back story - Mira . ‧₊˚ ⋅
🎀 she was raised in a small cultish town along side her sister, they were the outcasts as children and as adults.
🎀 when she was 19 and her sister was 18 they were kidnapped by the towns cult, they were brought to the forest where a sacrifice was to take place.
🎀 Mira was that sacrifice, her hands were bound and cut off, and she was killed by a axe to her back that shattered her spine.
🎀 her sister, Natalie brought her back via necromancy. Her hands had to be sewn back on, now they're removable (like Frankie from monster high)
Pre-relationship. ‧₊˚ ⋅
🎀 They met while on a mission, Toby was working with Jeff and Mira was working with her sister and they crossed paths.
🎀 Mira was nice to him, Toby was nervous and awkward when they first met. He gets nervous around pretty girls.
🎀 She complimented his gash, that stuck with him for a while.
🎀 They would see each other in the forest every now and then, they would talk for a while before going back to their work.
🎀 Toby thought she was pretty and nice, but she was just really weird. Like erratic hyper and she keeps a jar of teeth in her purse weird.
🎀 Him thinking she's weird threw him off for a while, on one hand she was really pretty and she compliments him alot, but on the other hand she's weird and stares at him all the time not even blinking.
🎀 Mira thought he was so cute, she liked him from the start. He was awkward and dorky, and his pretty face was a nice touch.
🎀 She tries to flirt but it's more so her making weird ominous comments to him, like she tells him she would pluck out his eyes and display them on her shelf.
🎀 Toby and Mira would get sent on missions together because they were the most durable, they would get missions done faster
🎀 Became friends after being together all the time
🎀 They were extremely close after a few months, they had virtually no boundaries with each other, they'd share clothes and sleep in each other's bed.
🎀 It took him a while to realize how he felt about her, he was wondering why he got so nervous and his stutter got worse around her before it clicked
🎀 Mira of course liked him from the beginning and knew about her feelings
🎀 Toby started following her home from their hangouts and it got worse over time, following her home turned into watching her through her windows.
🎀 She's aware of this, she lets him and justifies it when someone brings it to her attention.
🎀 He thinks she oblivious, but she's known since the beginning
🎀 Constantly have sleepovers, these "sleepovers" tend to last days or sometimes weeks
🎀 Sometimes Toby will break in to sleep in Mira's room because he couldn't sleep, she always lets him
🎀 He doesn't even wake her up after a while of doing this, he just climbs in next to her in the middle of the night and she wakes up with his face in her boobs.
🎀 There's so many broken windows
🎀 When Toby tells her how he feels after like seven months of knowing her she had to break the whole being dead thing to him
🎀 She tells him the whole story, from the cult to even showing him to gash on her back
🎀 He thinks it's cool, he's dating a zombie, he's so gonna brag to Jeff about that later.
🎀 She's kinda distraught, he's tying himself to a dead girl, she ends up crying over it and he's freaking out trying to comfort her
🎀 He tells her how much he loves her in some dorky speech and she is in love
🎀 Then they makeout
Dating. ‧₊˚ ⋅
🎀 Nothing really changes when they start officially dating
🎀 They were already a couple they just didn't know it
🎀 Toby's stalking habit doesn't stop, he's just able to justify it better now
🎀 "I-i'm just making sh-sure my girlfriend gets huh-home safe!" No one can really argue with him on that,
🎀 Mira still let's him do it, she cleans up the broken glass when he breaks in before her sister sees so she won't complain
🎀 Toby is possessive, more so in he's gonna kill any civilians that looks in her general direction way.
🎀 Mira is possessive as well, her jealousy can stretch far making it where she's angry if he talks to anyone she doesn't like.
🎀 Toby doesn't usually take his jealousy out on her, usually whoever interacted with her deals with his shit
🎀 Mira does take her jealousy out on him, she shuts down and doesn't talk to him for an hour or two, it drives him crazy
🎀 Usually she starts paying attention to him when he starts crying on her
🎀 She has him stop talking to anyone she doesn't like, he does it immediately bc he's whipped
🎀 He doesn't like her talking to certain people but doesn't ask her to stop, he always makes sure he's right next to her when they talk though
🎀 Unhealthy codependency final boss
🎀 They cannot handle not being within 20 feet of each other
🎀 Toby bully's her randomly to piss her off, he'll make fun of anything just to get under her skin
🎀 It works every time she gets so mad
🎀 He always sits and watches her do her hair, he'll sometimes pick out hairstyle for her to do.
🎀 Honestly he just likes watching anything she does, from her hair to her makeup, killings to cooking .
I could be sitting on Toby's bed in my underwear and Toby would be telling me about X-Men or something. "I J-just really resonated with this show a-as a— a kid." Toby. Shut up and fuck me.
Yume fic rahhh this was the first one I ever published on AO3, and it's also my favorite so I wanted to post it
Warnings/tags: codependency, pre relationship strawberrygash, mentions of Mira having bipolar disorder, stalking, breaking and entering lowk, they make each other worse icl
Toby was never... Normal about his feelings. When he loved someone they were his everything, he couldn't stand to be away from them, wherever they went he followed.
It wasn't often for him to have a crush, the woods was full of different people and entities, but he never paid much mind to them. Until she showed up.
She just appeared, like most do, alongside her sister. She was abrasive, passive aggressive on a good day, she could be cruel and her outbursts didn't help that.
Her mood swings were very apparent, sad one minute angry the next, like a switch would flip in her brain. When mania settled into her bones, her emotions wrapping around the marrow in them, she was very bubbly. She was happy, she seemed fun, but then it was anger.
She was irritable, snapping at anyone besides her sister, lashing out at the smallest inconvenience. But it was different when it was directed at him.
She couldn't be cruel to him, something about him made her unable to do so. Sure the outbursts would still be directed at him— but no insults, no throwing things at him like she would others, she just got a little snarky.
He saw it of course, she was his new obsession, he noticed everything about her. She seemed to soften around him, her outbursts less frequent when he was by her side.
To Toby, she was nothing short of perfection.
She was beautiful in ways he couldn't comprehend, the thought of her alone could make him puke from how pretty she was. He followed her around like a lost puppy, wherever she went he followed not too far behind.
People found it annoying, Natalie— her sister— especially. She'd berate Toby, throwing insults at him like crazy, calling him a creep for following Mira around constantly.
Mira always stopped it, telling Nat to leave him be, he wasn't harming nothing. Everytime she defended him it made his heart melt and his head feel hazy.
It got to a point that Toby started hallucinating her voice when she wasn't there, in a way it was a comfort, but it felt wrong, he wasn't supposed to hallucinate her.
She was supposed to be with him. He needed to feel her presence, the smell her perfume mixed with blood or sweat from her hunts, to feel her hands on his.
He couldn't stand to not be near her, he'd leave in the middle of the night sometimes, wandering the woods and ending up at her door. He never bothered her. She needed her rest.
He'd stand outside her window, looking in through a crack in the curtains, seeing her sleeping form. He just needed to see her, he really needed to see her.
Tonight was one of those nights, he stood watching her through the window, he needed to see her bad. He hadn't seen her most of the day, the Operator had kept her busy, her not being near him most of the day made his heart hurt.
Without thinking, he opened the window. He crawled inside clumsily, he made his way to her bedside, looming over her as she slept. She stirred, and he just watched, unmoving, unblinking. Like he was trying to engrain her features into his brain.
She jolted upright in bed when she awoke and saw him, "fucking hell Toby." She sighed, her hand instinctively going to cover her heart. "Sor-sorry. I wanted t-to see you." He said, his voice soft as he watched her, his hands twitched at his side.
"You coulda knocked hun." She said, throwing the covers off of herself and standing. The nickname made him melt, he instantly relaxed hearing the words come out of her mouth.
Toby towered over her, his eyes never leaving her, his eyes darted from her messy hair to her tired half-lidded eyes. She made her way to her lamp, turning it on so she could see her Toby.
"You look tired. Couldn't sleep?" She asked, sitting on her bed, she was so sweet to him, "no-oh-pe, I couldn't sleep without you." She smiled at him, "you can stay the night."
She nodded towards the lamp she just turned on, and he immediately went to turn it off. Immediately doing what she told him too without her even having to open her mouth.
He was practically jumping up and down, she moved to lay down again and beckoned him over. He tripped over his own feet trying to reach her, he flopped down on her bed, the second his head hit the pillow he could smell her perfume. The vanilla one she always puts on after a shower— his favorite.
"Tha-thank you." He said, she turned to him, able to make out his features through the moonlight that shown through the window. "Anytime." Is all she said before pulling him close to her.
She embraced him and he just laid there, taking in her presence. She maneuvered his limbs so she was comfortable, moving him so his head was laying on her chest. "Night Tobes." She whispered, her eyes closing as she drifted off once again.
"Night." He said, smiling as he finally fell asleep.
