I have always longed for someone to come along and rescue me from my abusive childhood, teenage years & now I have grown up. I'm almost to the middle of my life and just now starting to feel like I understand some of what the trauma from my early life has done to me. Where it has led me & how far I have come. To know that I didn't deserve any of it, is basic. But to learn self-awareness and self-care and righteous anger over what occurred to me and against me and how that has shaped my life....that is mind-blowing!!!!
There's nothing I can do about what happened to me, except to grow from it and ask for healing from God. And ask for forgiveness for what I may have done that was a sin, with no understanding. Especially since I have had the mindset of a 4 year old for years, because she has been in charge. More about that later.
I have to journal about some things or I might either implode or explode before I can get under control.
