i hate how jaded i’ve become. it’s paralyzed me to take any kind of action bc i have the perfect negative reaction to anything positive. it would be childish to blame my parents bc they were “ preparing me for the real world “ but i can’t help but feel like they snuffed out part of my light. i can’t place any blame on my high school boyfriend that treated me badly bc i let that happen and go on for months until i put myself in the ward. honestly the only blame is on me. i should’ve tried harder i should’ve done better. what kind of sixteen- seventeen year old knows better.
honestly i was probably meant to be jaded since the world would’ve made me that way.










