5/13/16
Dear Sad Diary,
Why are guys attention seeking assholes? Like I have done nothing to you yet you feel the need to share private negative thoughts just to look ‘cool’. Guess I should explain a bit. SO basically I went on this choir trip to Boston, I had a crush on the one guy, ended up having sex with him, then heard him talking about my performance to our other friends and have to listen to them laugh. Which was a huge low blow. My ego was crushed to the point where if I accidentally got hit by a car I wouldn’t really care. But basically he said I was aggressive and way to into it. Like what the fuck. Sorry for trying in bed. Sorry for not being a lifeless lump. Sorry for being sexually attracted to you. Like I never heard those words used in such a negative context before. Then he went on to say that at one point I sucked on his testicle too hard. WELL THEN FUCKING TELL ME THAT IN THE MOMENT, not after the fact to other people. And boy, if you didn’t like it then why did you say to keep going. So now I’m left here feeling like shit while I probably haven’t even crossed his mind. Worst part was he found out that I had heard what he said and he didn’t even bother to apologize. I hate boys.