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¿Por qué tengo la sensación de que cada vez que vuelvo a ti es porque estoy completa y totalmente rota? 

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5/25/16

Dear Sad Diary,

I can’t tell whether or not I hate my brother’s girlfriend. I mean I’m assuming it’s my natural protective instincts kicking in but I’m still not sure that’s the only reason. Like in person she’s okay and nice for the most part. I definitely love her kid who’s adorable and I’d love to be his aunt but I’m not so sure I’d want her as a sister in law. My huge pet peeve with her is she’s a big social media poster. Like I mean she posts ALL of the time and not just on Facebook but on Instagram. And honestly some of the stuff she should not be posting. Especially since my brother is in the Air Force. Like nobody needs to know the small stupid details of your life. Granted I’m ranting about her on social media. But hey not like anyone reads my blog or gives a damn or knows who I am. But still something about her puts me on edge and I know she talks negatively to my brother about me. Which kinda pisses me off. Like if I jokingly ask my brother why there is blonde hair on his shirt (nobody in my family is blonde) she gets way too uptight about it. Like girl calm down, my parents joke around to each other like this. It’s the nature of my family, no need to be so stingy about it and then make it a big deal when your on the phone with my brother. Like he bought you a house to live with him and he wants to adopt your kid. So get that stick out of your ass and lighten up. Ugh, maybe I’m overreacting but I just want the best for my brother. I hope for the best and hopefully I keep my temper. No promises though, I can’t control the other guy.

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5/13/16

Dear Sad Diary,

Why are guys attention seeking assholes? Like I have done nothing to you yet you feel the need to share private negative thoughts just to look ‘cool’. Guess I should explain a bit. SO basically I went on this choir trip to Boston, I had a crush on the one guy, ended up having sex with him, then heard him talking about my performance to our other friends and have to listen to them laugh. Which was a huge low blow. My ego was crushed to the point where if I accidentally got hit by a car I wouldn’t really care. But basically he said I was aggressive and way to into it. Like what the fuck. Sorry for trying in bed. Sorry for not being a lifeless lump. Sorry for being sexually attracted to you. Like I never heard those words used in such a negative context before. Then he went on to say that at one point I sucked on his testicle too hard. WELL THEN FUCKING TELL ME THAT IN THE MOMENT, not after the fact to other people. And boy, if you didn’t like it then why did you say to keep going. So now I’m left here feeling like shit while I probably haven’t even crossed his mind. Worst part was he found out that I had heard what he said and he didn’t even bother to apologize. I hate boys. 

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4/29/2016

Dear Sad Diary

I apologize for my absence but alas I feel no inspiration to write to you. I’ll be more active this summer I promise. I need to go study for finals now. 

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2/22/16

Dear Sad Diary,

I am currently sitting in a dark lounge listening to Wicked with the company of my new trustworthy friend, Emily. I’m half tired but I just don’t wanna go back to my room, mainly because it’s in a different dorm across the street. I’m actually quite tempted to pass out in this lounge, but I can’t. Now i’m listening to Mamma Mia. I feel like this post has zero purpose besides to fill the empty spaces in my heart, mind, and soul. I shall bore you no more.

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2/14/16

Dear Sad Diary,

Fuck Valentine’s Day. A Stupid commercialized holiday used to show someone that you love them. Hell, you should show your love year round, not just on some day that’s marked by cupid. ANYWAYS, I’m just chilling in my teenage mutant ninja turtle pjs and loving life. I’m playing League of Legends with my brothers with my takeout from Applebee’s in hand. Life is good. I’m content and finally happy with myself. I have always been independent but over the past month I have grown even more independent to the point where I’m satisfied with being single. I realized that if I want a great career and eventually be able to support a family I need to get my shit together now and work my ass off to get the grades and the degrees. So while I hope all the couples out there are enjoying being romantic, I also hope that the single people don’t feel lonely because nobody deserves to feel unloved. Love yourself, just don’t be a conceded prick.

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2/6/16

Dear Sad Diary,

Life is good. Minus the fact that since 2016 began all i have been is ill. Numerous health problems which has not been fun. Anyways, my love life a been silent-ish. I mean boys keep knocking but i feel satisfied being on my own. I’m finally accepting the single life again and I’ve been focusing on me and my studies. Plus I’ve been taking Russian which is definitely a challenge worth fighting. 

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1/17/16

Dear Sad Diary,

Sorry I haven’t wrote in a while. I’ve been doing good. Winter break is over now. I’m officially moved back into my dorm. I’m excited for the semester and my classes. I’m hoping to actually focus on academics this semester and NOT on boys. But while we’re on the topic of boys, here’s a quick update; so the guy previously mentioned in my other posts had contacted me over break saying how he was finally over his ex and he wanted to be with me. I laughed, then nicely told him that I thought we were just friends and how I had already moved on. He claims he’s going to fight for me. I laughed again. As for this other new guy, I’m ending it. He’s really nice and we’ve been on three dates but I just don’t feel like I have a connection with him. It’s hard to explain but I just know it wont work out. ANYWAYS, classes start Tuesday. I’m pumped. Till next time. Kisses.