oh man, i used to hate u so much! i was so embarrassed about who i used to be, and i’m sorry. that probably would’ve hurt a lot if you knew. you actually weren’t all that bad - you were just a weird kid with a big heart that bruised so easily. talking to people is hard and it takes a lot of practice, but you’ll get better at it.
honestly not much has changed there - you’re still kinda weird and sensitive, but people actually like you despite that! maybe even because of that. some of those “weirdos on the internet” your mom warned you about are gonna end up being your best friends.
(some of them aren’t gonna be your best friends, and that’s okay. i still remember how much it hurts, how it was almost too much to bear.)
i wish i could’ve warned you about what’s going to happen at uni. those 3 years are going to be some of the hardest of your life, and your grades are going to suffer for it but you’re also going to figure out the answer to a question you didn’t even know you had.
you’re going to end up moving to LA to make up for your subpar undergrad gpa, and that’s when your life really starts turning around. most of your friends there are gonna fall somewhere under the lgbtq spectrum and you’re gonna be so happy!!!! so please, please hang in there for me ok? i know it’s hard, but you’re so much stronger than you’ve ever given yourself credit for