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13 and 14 for the ask thingy :)

13) what is one thing you’ll never do again

Being very open about my DID (especially the parts part of it). Be it in personal life or in therapy, I'm pretty careful with what I reveal nowadays (because I literally lost all my friends after being open about it and my therapist was a dick who harmed parts instead of helping). My future T will have to have some real patience and thick skin because I will test them lmao

14) whats your most bizarre pet peeve

When people make that little head movement when they swallow pills (you know what I mean? I can't explain it). It makes me so aggressive and I don't know why. It takes everything I have not to physically attack the person doing it and scream at them which I know is such a huge overreaction. I always look away but I still know it's happening and even just thinking about it makes my body go borderline rage mode. I know it doesn't make sense at all but it is what it is

Thank you for asking!! :)

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@punkrocknerdfighter  replied to your post “I'm sorry if I missed if you already posted it, can you share the link...”

I suspect the fear of shades walking if you don't take precautions comes from the Others raising wights during the long night.

Mmm, could be, but I think the wildlings are smarter by taking the precaution of burning bodies. Laying your dead out in tombs with statues, and giving the statues real swords, just means you’ve weaponized your dead. Um. Well, hopefully not...

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Now I'm imagining something like the ice castle from Frozen but with creepier lighting 😂

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48,59,61

Thank youuu!!!

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

Lol, I love that question. I was kinda torn between grapefruits and dried mango strips but I'll go with the latter because it looks like the kind of dried meat people in medieval fantasy novels use as provisions for their journeys and let's be real here, if I was any kind of food I'd be this. But I'm vegan and if you ask me, dried mango stripes are the vegan equivalent of dried meat (and eating them does always make me feel like I'm in a fantasy novel).

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

"It's dangerous to go alone, take this" *hands you an enchanted item of clothing I crocheted myself*

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

[ID: Two gifs of the conversation Loki had with Thor when they met again The Avengers. Loki says, "I remember a shadow. Living in the shade of your grateness."]

[ID: Gif of Loki when he and Thor talked as he tried to destroy the bifrost in Thor 1. He says, "I never wanted the throne. I only ever wanted to be your equal."]

Also, the conversation Loki and Frigga had in that deleted scene when he was imprisoned in TTDW:

Frigga: "Cast enough illusions and you risk forgetting what is real."

Loki: "Precisely."

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10, 30, 37 :)

Thank youuuuu!! 😊❤️

10. how would you describe your style?

Comfy, practical, simple. (With a tendency for colorful pants, knitted pullovers, crop tops and floral patterns hehe.) When I'm at home I always wear baggy pants though. 🙈 I'm not very fashionable (yet) 😬

30. whats your favorite candle scent?

I don't use candles because I'm scared of fire, and lazy too 😂 But maybe I'll give candles a try once I live on my own 😅

37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

Already answered this but I'll tell you another book series I really like hehe: Die Gaukler Chroniken by Sam Feuerbach.

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I see you're a bit tipsy so what's the best foods to eat when you're tipsy? (I'm sorry I'm not getting a lot on the questions front lmao) oh! How's the piano playing going?

all questions are good!!!!!

so when i'm t ipsy and like sitting at a cafe/restaurant, then nachos 100%. though restaurants always put too little cheese - you're supposed to layer it so there's cheese on most chips, lol. when going home drunk after a party: turkish pizza!!!! (though it's been a long time since I've been in that situation)

when just at home idk random snacks!! but to be honest, when I have the ingredience (almost never bc i rarely buy meat and especially not ham) - a True To God TOSTI with ham and cheese. eaten with mayo bc i don't do ketchup.

and the piano playing is actually going so well 🥺 i'm SO impressed (sorry if that's arrogant lol) with how much I can still read music. a lot of old pieces came back quite easily and I'm working my way through some new einaudi pieces now (primavera for solo piano, and una mattina). considering buying a sheet music book from Alexis Ffrench so i'll have something else/new to play!!

(if anyone reading this knows of other 'contemporary piano music' that is nice to play (not yann tiersen lmao i played all his fun songs as a teenager) pls let me know)

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Omg yes hocus pocus was the funnest game ever (but I sucked at it), I love that you know it too because no one ever does!

Omg I've never met another person that knows it either!!! I was definitely not good at it as a kid, but I did have fun playing through it a couple years ago. I honestly think I may just download it again, it's still in my steam library haha. I love that you know it too! 😂

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A very lowkey shit perhaps but! Was wondering if you figured out what to do with the balcony? And how the new house is feeling in general, and how it feels to live in it? 💛

AHA! Great questions!

The baby pigeons finally left the nest this week so (I am so sorry to all animal lovers including myself) I broke the nest so there will be no new baby pigeons right next to my balcony shitting all over the place (there was literally a pile of shit the size of a "I haven't shat in a week" human!!!). I couldn't enter my balcony without angry pigeons flapping their defensive "don't come near my children" wings at me and the roo-cooing in the morning was Very Loud (right next to bedroom window as well).

I got two packets of seeds with the "help the bee"-flowers and I actually got soil, so I hope either tomorrow or sunday (or wednesday) it won't be raining for a bit so I can actually put the seeds in the soil!!!

I need to cut some more of the ivy, but I actually did end up finding a 'before' photo of the balcony and it's visible how much I cleaned up already 😅 (I'm leaving some because it looks nice but it's covering entirely too much right now)

There's a very ugly side to the balcony (used to be no-see-through glass, but then someone put old... luxaflex in front of it? idk it looks horrendous and dirty) that I need to figure out. But after I get the flower seeds and the ivy done, my next goal is to clean off the rubber tiles - this can only been done after it hasn't rained for maybe a week. And then it's just gonna be a work in process haha, but then I'll have the basics down!

As for living here, part awesome, part terrifying? SO much space. I hope some time soon I'll be able to go to one of the massive stores nationwide that sell electric pianos so I can try some out and hopefully orient myself more towards buying one. The space where it's gonna go is so Empty right now :')

There's probably more I could say about this but I'm gonna leave it at this for now because I'm rambling!! Thank you for asking 💛💛

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1! (Did no one ask that one yet?!) And 100!

Hehe no, no one asked yet, thank you!!

1. Sander van Doorn, Harris & Ford - Spotlight (extended mix) This is another song that wrote my thesis xD This was an earlier part of my thesis though, when I was creating the illustrations I used in my questionnaire and when I was trying to do the data analysis. Uni library vibes as well. I can imagine it's number 1 because I just had it on repeat for days and days and days and days and days. Music is one of the things that can help me "activate" certain adult-functioning-modes, such as studying.

100. Oxia - Domino I swear I don't even know this song xD But considering the genre, it has to be in my studying list. I probably had it on repeat because the beat kept me active and study-y enough to work on my thesis. I haven't listened to this genre of music since handing in my thesis :')

(Oh hold on, I'm starting to recognize the song a minute in, this one definitely was a thesis-writer lol)