I have to admit it, I hate it when I'm not aware of things that involved in my life.
I hate it that I’m in the shady zone when things are moving without me knowing of. It makes me feel like I'm not in control or I cannot foresee what’s coming, cannot control the worst situation.
I hate it.
I think I was bad today throwing words to that friend of mine because I was not updated with what I’m supposed to be updated. I don’t feel like it’s my fault. But I do feel bad when I realize what I care about is not my friend anymore. I care about my things.
I felt terrible. I felt bad. Really really bad.
How to really love someone in the right way that not hurts us?
How to have flamingood vibes only?








