a/n: afab!female!reader x Bi-Han, angsts!romance, angsty!readerxBi-Han, betrayal aftermath. NoPowers!Reader.
A/n 2: This is not a part 2 of the last story. This is its own thing.
TW: Mentions of the fear of d!ath by freezing is mentioned. BE WARNED !!
“ Nostalgic Ocean Eyes. ”
— The starry, breezy, and lighted night welcomed your solemn presence. There was a part of you that had long been frozen since 3 months ago. You sat on the ground of the courtyard silently, watching Kuai Liang, Harumi, and Tomas go to bed after a long day of work. It’s been long since the day that Kuai Liang and Tomas escorted you out of the Lin Kuei when they delivered the news of Bi-Han’s betrayal to your chambers. Despite there being hope burning, and engraving, inside of your heart; there lacked hope in your mind. You knew yourself better than that, you could never look at Bi-Han in the eyes the same way again. You are only human, and you can only take so much, and become delusional enough to a point where you finally reach the end of delusion, and can no longer go deeper in. When you realize that reality has settled in, and the man that you once loved was no longer there [and would never be back]. You removed your face mask, and you let your hair go. No matter how deep your breathing was, and how relieving it felt against the cold air— nothing could soothe the pain of half of your heart being ripped out from your chest.
— “ . . . Why am I kidding myself. . . He doesn’t even care, and it’s all honor and glory. . .” You said to yourself, fighting the gloss in your eyes, and breathing deeply through your nose. You were basically talking to yourself, recovering from the moment of delusion.
“ . . . If he comes back— I will only give him one chance to leave, and never come back.”
“ How could he even ?? Why would he even apologize ? ”
“ To me it is unbelievable. . . Madam Bo and Liu Kang have taught me better than that. . .”
— Eventually, you loomed your glossy eyes towards the moon. Lips slowly pouting, and a sad blush emerging from your tinted cheeks. A defeated sigh came from your soft-and-velvet lips. “ . . . So much for wanting honor . . . Let’s see if he finds another person to love. . . If he can even love. . .” You muttered, before turning your head to the side and lying on the grassy field. It felt like the grass became a new warm hug, its arms wrapping around you with care and love that you had never felt before. Maybe you have felt it before, and you tried to forget about how nice it felt to be hugged by someone whom you love so dearly, and deeply. Someone whom you’ve trusted in life-endangering situations, and life-changing situations. The warm grass had held a musky-like smell. The smell of oil, incense, and metal seethed from the grass. As weird as it was, it brought nostalgia to your aching heart. it felt like you were slowly drifting into a slumber in the arms of your significant other—your past significant other. As soon as you started to loose conscious, and began falling asleep, a new warmth came into the picture. The warmth felt so welcoming, that you did not even think about the fact that everyone in the courtyard has gone to bed, and the night watch people were on the other side.
— Bi-Han had been attempting to sneak into the Shirai Ryu Courtyard in order to write accurate coordinates of the location, and by which mountains and places it passes. His presence did not disturb the peace, or the silence, and he almost acted invisible. Keyword, almost. Bi-Han’s course finally lead him to your direction, and he eventually began to stare at you, holding the torch over you to keep you warm in the cold of the night. Despite such heartlessness he displayed all those months ago, he acknowledged the hatred you had for the environmental cold. He grumbled lightly, and tried to look away— but he couldn’t. The only cold you longed for was his cold hands, which always made you feel warm in some way. He planned to go inside the courtyard and get coordinates for the new clan that was being built. To anticipate the upcoming of a new worthy foe, a clan full of traitors that not even blood had bonded them. However, something they had. . . Was really the real reason he was there. He wanted to bring you back, He wanted to be with you until the end of the timeline. Bi-Han wanted you to be there, to see his hard work grow, and to become what his father never was. Glorious, and Honoring— with a lot of power, and protection. He wanted to be feared to keep the clan, and his family, safe. It was in his nature to be that way. He did not let anyone get in the way of his goals. In the end, though, he realized that he had lost a piece of comfort that brought him the feeling of home. He lost you. Once seeing you lay on the grass, drifting away into a slumber, he could not help but sit down on the grass alongside you. He did not think of touching you for a moment, since you were so peaceful laying there, like a sleepy vixen.
— “ . . . I thought i would never lay my eyes on you again . . .” He said gently, and in a whisper. Almost like he was relieved to see you somewhere that was somewhat safe. He rolled his eyes to himself, and grumbled seeing the moon looking over at such heartbreaking sight. He never thought you’d be able to hear his voice— even though that was what awakened you in the first place. His presence alone. You pretended to be asleep, hoping he’d go away. You did not want to be the one to tell him to leave, as it would break your heart all over again. After a while passed, you felt him lay down next to you, putting out the torch. Eventually, you felt one of his hands gently caress your hair, and you jolted up with a sense of danger. Bi-Han’s hand flinched back, and the both of you were on the floor staring at each other. Your eyes had finally met those ocean deep eyes, bringing you back to a time where everyone lived in something close to harmony. But now, he looked at what was a former shell of yourself— and deep inside, his heart screamed the blame towards himself. You kept staring like an idiot, before shuffling your way back up, and started to run away to get help. However, almost like you knew what would happen, you stopped moving. It is not that you wanted to stop moving, but your body couldn’t let you move faster, and you were rather frozen from the waist down… he froze your legs.
— “No matter how many times you try to escape me, and run away… you still forget that freezing the floor is a possibility. You are really stupid.” He scoffed, crossing his arms, before making his way over to you. Honestly, he did not expect for you to even look mad. But you were burning daggers into him from your eyes. You were still hurt, and his abrupt arrival did not change that. “ When you thaw me out of here, you will regret having EVER come back—“ “ How dare you raise your voice at the grandmaster of the Lin Kuei ?!” Both of you began to argue in whisper tones, almost like you were saving each other the pain of having an unfair fight. For the last 3 months, you’ve been having enough pent up aggression for this moment, to smack him— to kick the shit out of him and make him regret the betrayal. You could not even do that at the moment,because your heart’s aches began to intensify even more. There was a moment of both of you whisper yelling at each other, where you finally took a moment to catch your breath. You realized that fighting would not change anything— and it would wake up everyone else. Wait a moment, you should wake up everyone— Bi-han is literally standing right in front of you, he should not even be here. Yet, your mind’s pleading to do the right thing was clouded by the judgement of your foolish heart. Your heart desired for the man that gave you, and supported you with, shelter and protection, to ask— no, BEG— for your forgiveness, to acknowledge the irreversible damage that has been done.
— His veined, strong, and roughed hands grabbed the sides of your face. In fear, and distrust, you grabbed his hands, hoping he would not kill you in this moment in the most terrifying way… freezing to death, by the hands of your lover. You could not bear the last amount of trust you’d ever have be broken within your last breathes. But he didn’t do that, and he opted for bringing your face closer, and closer, before slowly meeting his lips to yours in an electrifying kiss. You grabbed his hands tighter, trying to pull away, but your body would melt right into his touch, and your mind would daze into deeper nostalgic delusion. His warm lips felt so welcoming to your body, like it was an ecstasy that you were not addicted to, rather it was essential to your survival. His hands kept holding gently onto your face, before bringing a hand down to your hips, while you wrapped your plushy arms around the back of his neck. Slowly, the hurt and betrayed emotions that were long buried had started to be uncovered when the kiss intensified in passion. It felt like a battle of lips, before turning into a passionate make-out that was so scandalous to think the grandmaster of the Lin Kuei would ever participate in such things with a traitor. The kisses began to dwindle like stars, and was slowly put out by Bi-Han gently tugging at your bottom lip with his teeth. Eventually he let go of your face, and kept his hands around your waist, holding you like he once did.
— “Say it.” You demanded of him, your hands slowly riding down from the back of his neck to his chest, where the Lin Kuei symbol resided. The question made him grumble lightly, looking towards the ground. You knew how much he melted at your demands, even if he could not understand them. There was something about you being so demanding that always reflected on him pretty well. God forbid it taking effect in this moment, especially when you repeated it again. “ Bi-Han, Say it and mean it . . .” You said softly, holding his face, hoping for the glimmer of hope. “ . . . The only forgiveness i will beg you for, is for hurting you— and for not protecting you better. Everything else, i will not ask for forgiveness. . .” He stated, remaining a little grumpy, and a little cocky. However, what he did want to ask forgiveness for did spark that glimmer of hope. You remained silent, and felt your hands shake, and you were so close to smacking the crap out of him. In the end, you clenched your fist, and sighed a relieving breath, crossing your arms. “ Why are you here ?” You asked with a low growl, feeling the ice melt from under you. “ . . . I came looking for you.” He sighed out, looking to the floor. You paused for a moment, considering the state you now saw him in. He still had the promise ring in his finger, and three Lin Kuei symbols were on him. You saw him take one symbol off, your symbol. He pinned it on your shirt, and gentle nudged it. Despite such anger you previously held, you still wondered if it was true that he was looking for you as the principal reason. It felt right, It felt like the right reason, and the only reason. “ . . . You do not understand the pain i’ve been through since your stunt— Bi-han, I cant even look at you in the eyes anymore, You’re a traitor to everyone else.” You began to speak, your frustration turning into desperation. You began to finally walk back and forth before continuing to ramble on about how he’s changed, how you’ve been affected, and everything under the moon. “ All you’ve been is selfish !” You whisper yelled, trying to hold in all the gloss in your eyes, but you felt like he wasn’t listening, he looked so stupid standing there like he did nothing. “ It’s not like you even listen anyways, that’s why we’re in this disposition.” You sighed, before sitting on the floor again, watching the moon.
— The necromancer remained quiet, before sitting next to you. Each action felt more, and more, and more like home— more like him. “ You know that no matter how much I Iove you now, I will never pick you over my people anymore-“ you began to say, before taking a moment to breathe, and continuing to talk eventually, “-the same way you picked all of your clan over me and your brothers…” You said firmly, anger clearly displayed on your brow. His silent nod said everything you needed to know, it was really all fucked up now. “ . . . But my enemy, you are not that.” He managed to say, staring at the moon, holding your hand gently. “... I hate that you have become my weakness. Had you not, it would not be hard to take you out right now— but my brain and my heart are conflicted… so I will keep you alive.” You let him talk for longer, and longer, and longer. The moments in which your heart trumped your brain were too many, and this one was a clear winner of the heart. “ Don’t think that I did it to hurt you, because I did it to—“ you placed your hand on top of his mouth, shushing him while hearing the environment of the empty courtyard in the middle of the night. “ . . . I know that all you wanted was the best for the future of the Lin Kuei, at any cost necessary. This is just the price for that, and I am not going to reduce it for you, Grandmaster Bi-Han.” You said to him, eventually grabbing a hold of his hands. His eyes softened at your words, and he was still somewhat stone-cold. In his heart, and on the inside, his heart was slowly breaking. But not because of you, but from your words. He was starting to feel the degree of the mistake he had made. Yet, You already acknowledged the severity. You saw the flaws, and you knew he needed to see them before he could think about fixing them— that’s if he even wanted to.
— “ . . . I will not stay with the Shirai Ryu for long, I plan to go across the land independently. Maybe after I complete some assignments.” You stated, and began to think of where you wanted to go. But the place you wanted to be was in his arms… a traitor’s arm. “ The enemy of the Shirai Ryu I am not. The enemy of Liu Kang, I am not. The enemy of Queen Mileena, I am not. Therefore, an enemy of the Lin Kuei, I will not be with enough time. . . Once you’ve regained my trust.” You explicitly stated, and shook your head thinking of what it could’ve been. “ . . . I, understand.” Bi-Han said, and started to get up to his feet. He reached out a hand towards you, and you grabbed his hand while he pulled you up effortlessly. You both kept holding into his hand, and he held tightly onto yours. The fiery passion of your romance was clearly still there. You looked down, trying not to give in to another, kiss. Maybe a hug is okay, but another kiss would break your boundaries down. It was time for Bi-Han to go, as the sun began to slowly peak at the horizon. You both shared a longing hug of lovers, your scent driving him crazy, feeling the warmth of both your bodies together. A cozy touch that could easily send him to sleep if he’d wish it so hard. Bi-he, in the heat of the moment, gave you a quick kiss on your forehead, and with the blink of an eye, retreated back to the Lin Kuei. With the retreat, your heart left with it. By next morning, there was nothing but a numb feeling. Nothing sad, Nothing angry, Nothing happy. It threw people off, yet no one knew why. You lied to Bi-Han, when you said you could never look at him in the eyes again. You stared into those longing, ocean eyes— before tearing your heart into pieces.