#trans depression

[mahdikfelloff]

Ever get to the point of the day where you’re like “ah yes. This fuckery again”

For me personally it’s usually about 5 seconds after I wake up

[universal-undertow]

Last October, I made the decision to cash out my mutual fund ($6K) so that I could leave a job that was taking a HUGE fucking toll on my mental health- I knew I couldn’t graduate and apply to grad programs while working in that environment. Now I have no money and I have to delay top surgery. I’m so tired of always making decisions to survive in the moment at the cost of my future happiness. This isn’t going to get better. I’m going to grad school next year for five years, years that my family tells me I will be living “in borderline poverty” and too stressed to get surgery. I feel like there’s always going to be a reason to delay and I’m exhausted of not feeling at home in my body. If I don’t figure out a way to fix this body, it’ll kill me.