I'm changing my orientation. Already mentioned this but I wanted to make a post about it.
I've used so many terms (and all at the same time, too!) and some fit more than others, but it's always been confusing.
I've used asexual, allosexual, aromantic, alloromantic, anattractional, alloattractional, aplatonic (not alloplatonic though), afamilial, (my God there's so many attractions, and all kind of relevant too UHG) some more niche terms too, nillosexual, not to mention the other vector, so gay/homosexual, turian, straight/heterosexual, darcian, bisexual, polysexual, omnisexual, pansexual, multisexual, monosexual... there's all sorts of combinations with them too, of course, so also multi-spec mono-spec... and such...
But like I said, it's so much! And that'd be okay if it fit, but it doesn't. I just go back and forth on the whole thing.
hehe. h-husband,,, though... ehe. him.
My squishy wishy. Good God, he is so perfect for me...
He fits me better than all those other terms. So, I don't even want to be anything else! Thus, I'm actually [his name here which I wont list bc privacy]sexual.
Other terms I still use, but only insofar as they relate to him (so loveless, AAP, AAA, non-SAM, friendsexual (a term I coined myself, uh,, I don't care enough to explain it), allosexual, necrosexual + cannibal (please please please)). Autosexual is on thin ice, I'll allow it for now, just because it's gay and narcissistic. And spite-pedophilia is an entirely different thing, it's not even about attraction...
So, I'm like null for all these other orientations. I don't want them, I just want him (and no, not demisexual or atomosexual either, just him, just homosexual (which is also what he is, so I guess matching is a part of it too)).
Everything else should be irrelevant to my little brain, I should exist to be nothing but his goodest, littlest, husband. (* ´ ﹃｀*)
Which is also why I use null instead of just,,, not / never being those orientations, because I have to move away from them / stop being those things...
Oh oh, that's also leaving out the whole heterophilia thing.
I originally came up with it as a concept for understanding paraphilias, like, CONSENSUALLY, so not just saying, 'well it's weird so it's bad and wrong! disorder!' instead of actually being based off the individual / how they experience / want to conceptualise this part of themselves... and you know, SPEAKING OVER THEM, about what isn't and isn't right for them 🙄🙄🙄 who they should and shouldn't be... (I want to use more caps, but I won't.)
But anyways, then realised it applied to him (which,,, he,,, also use heterophilia, maybe I really like matching him a lot...), and then I realised it applied to me too. Truly, it's been quite helpful and groundbreaking, even, conceptualising my attraction to women as a mental disorder. Like, it makes the whole concept of paraphilia actually have value, and not just be, immoral and shit. Who would have thought, consent was the key ╮(￣▽￣"")╭