btw here in germany kids also just say "six sevenn", not even sechs seben. a lot of countries, including russia like someone else said, teach basic english. and most people opt for the english version of the meme instead of translating it into their own language :3
ngl it's a little annoying. I know everyone speaking the same language has practical benefits, but damn I still don't want to do it. I want to be null-english ///
I don't care enough to reexplain it, just look up AGAB on my blog if you care. But just to be really really clear, this is meant to be a consensual ID, not the normal usage of AGAB, so it's like reclamation and stuff. Also it's genuine/serious, not (just) a joke ID,, like this is my real AGAB at birth. I'm a baby. Wa. (* ´ ﹃｀*)
I just wanted to post the flags. Which btw, I used 4 stripes for, because I saw some other xenoAGAB use 4 stripes, and think it's neat, nice pastel colours for... baby. And a baby symbol, for obvious reasons.
Fun fact, when I was born, I was a baby. Assigned baby at birth. So that means, no matter how my body changes, how old I am, I will always be a baby. Once a baby always a baby. Wa. (* ´ ﹃｀*) You may not agree but these are the facts.
Also blah blah some rant about AGAB. I think it's problematic because it's defined by being unconsensual, and that's how 99% seek to use it, which is why I love xeno uses of AGAB, like... xenoAGAB, neoAGAB, transAGAB, or even cisAGAB but like. consensual, yk? And others of course, it's not about the term, it's how it's used. It's about choosing who you are, your gender, sex, biology, life, etc. etc. not being limited by bigotry,, like,,, I've hated AGAB for a long time, but when I thought about it being used consensually, like ABAB,, I think it's really neat actually. Like yeah,, that's who I am. A baby. It's a bit of shame I've only ever seen people use it jokingly/criticisingly,, but I mean it genuinely, like it's a bit silly but very /genuine and /serious.
Technically I'm more null-everything-except-husband/homosexual,, but yeah,, it's like the same idea as trans-orientation to me.
Technically this also means I'm trans-allosexual and trans-monosexual? 🤔 Since I'm also null-asexual and null-multisexual (and all their sublabels...) hm...
ahhhh hahahaaa cries sobs and trashes around or smth
i may have a problem kms
i dont wanna be an addict, of anything,, but theres so much going on in my brain, so much energy and noise and i feel weirdly good and happy but the energy is overwhelming i dont know whats wrong with me
i took 2 ibuprofen and 3 loratadine just because, just to quiet my brain or smth, and got an energy drink for some fuckass reason
yesterday we spent all our money, which is around 50 dollars or something just just because
and i dont knoowwww
some weeks ago (for some context sept 18 is the national holiday of my country) we took like 2 ibuprofen, 2 paracetamol and 2 loratadine and it felt so good, completely pain free,, just enough energy, not too much or too little,, no brainfog either,, i just needed to feel that again so here i am
i dont know,, idk what im doing anymore,, i dont want to end a junkie,, but i also wish i could feel neurotypical and bodily abled like that all the time
dont get me wrong, i love being autistic and being able to feel this deeply and love my interests this intensly, but it also sucks the other half of the time,, the being hypersensitive to stimuli, the hypersensitivity also sucks 50% of the time,, and the other stuff wrong with my brain and body, both diagnosed and undiagnosed
i wouldnt change it for anything, without all this shit i wouldnt be me, but if i could continue to be me but without all the nerfing, then maye i would
Is this what one might call necro-reposting? Because of how old the post is? Well, I think it's interesting, so I wanted to engage with it... Time is a social construct anyways.
I think the concept of addiction and dtugs is interesting, and problematic.
Like, are diabetic people insulin and glucagon junkies? Do they need to lay off the needle? Do people with asthma need to stop huffing those inhalers so much? Or even cancer, so many of those medications clearly poison their body, should they just go all natural, and let nature do what it was meant to do?
Or... hypogonadic people, they're destroying their body, making themselves ugly as hell, with those dangerous AAS, you know, a literal controlled substance.?
Even surgery, I mean seriously, are you going to inject literal fentanyl into your spine? Just because, what? 'Surgery hurty' sounds like you should you should choose the healthier option, of simply enduring the pain of your vital organs being dissected.
I mean... it's so weird, isn't it? These people are all literally taking drugs, substances that alter the body and mind, in large and frequent doses, some being literally the same as 'hard drugs', yet... bit of a different attitude, isn't it?
Of course, even funnier when people do genuinely believe this. They think people should just suffer extreme pain, suffocation, cancer, death, just because. what? Drugs r bad? Just toughen up? I don't need them, so that means you don't need them either? They're unnecessary?
Isn't it clearly fucked? But at least they're a little more honest than the hypocrites, who wouldn't say the same about these uses, yet still criticise others, such as chronic pain, transitioning, mental illness, etc..
The point is, regardless of whether people claim they care about other's health, side effects, wellbeing, well... is it ever really about consent? 'Trans HRT isn't at all the same as those AAS abusers!' The argument against them, is always about everything except whether the person wants to take that medication.
It's why I especially bring up the hypogonadism/AAS example. There's so many examples of the way people disrespect consent with it.
A cis man that wants to take AAS, 'well he shouldn't of course, it'll poison his body! Make him... ugly! He should just work out the normal way!'
A trans man wanting to take AAS, well, on one side, 'he shouldn't of course, it'll poison her body! Make her... ugly! Because those are the most important things. She should just be normal!' on the other side, 'well it's okay, because being transgender is a genuine illness! It's only in healthy doses! It's okay for their body (this time)! It's nothing like those cis men who abuse AAS, those freaks are just ruining their body!'
It flips even more, a hypogonadic man who doesn't want to take AAS, 'well, it's medically necessary, he won't go through normal puberty otherwise! He needs to have normal hormone levels, his body will be ruined otherwise! He'll never look like a proper man!'
Of course, consent isn't part of any of this. Whether it's approval or disproval, whether the person wants to take it not, never has anything to do with anything, in fact, no only is actively depriving people okay, actively forcing people is okay too.
Even the trans man example, the closest it gets to consent, ultimately, isn't about consent. Even the people who argue, trans men who want testosterone should be able to take it, end up arguing, this isn't JUST okay because it's their body, because they should do whatever they want, because they should define what's harmful and healthy, because they should get to do it even if it's unhealthy, because it's their choice, it ends up being about how it's actually healthy! The government and health organisations says it's legal and proper! It's only in small, healthy doses. It's not toxic, their bodies can take it actually.
They allow it because they, the people who's body this ISN'T happening to, ultimately decided it's healthy, or legal, or morally right, or attractive, or normal, are okay with it, the individual's consent, no matter if they're mentioned or not, ultimately isn't actually respected by these people, because it's not the real determining factor.
Again, especially the hypogonadic example, even people who are against AAS in every other circumstance, will suddenly be okay, because guess what, it was never about whatever it is they were yapping about to begin with. 'Trans men are just confused girls, they can't consent!' All of the sudden, consent doesn't matter when it's making the person normal. All of the sudden, AAS stops being toxic and dangerous, because it's normalising now.
('It's just cis men with body dysmorphia, they can be treated with therapy, unlike trans men!')
It's rooted in being anti-consent, no matter whether they use the word consent or not, even their definition of healthiness, danger, unacceptable side effects, etc. are based off their own idea of normal, with the person who would be taking this medication definition of normal not mattering, so like. consent over the details too, to determine things as the wish.
Like so many people with chronic pain. People will understand if it's anaesthetic for surgery or childbirth, because well, it hurts! But when it comes to chronic pain, arguable worse in that it's unending, and also, no reason it can't be just as bad as surgery, all of the sudden, pain isn't that bad, there's no reason to take such unhealthy medications for it. Whether any of these people want it or not, well, irrelevant, isn't it? Even if someone doesn't want sedatives, well, inject them anyways! It's what supposed to happen, it'll make them more compliant! The more the struggle, the more you oughta give them!
For some reason or another, they just decided it's too abnormal and wrong to take regular medication, I want to see them get lectured by aliens for their oxygen addiction, 'what do you mean, you need to constantly inhale a toxic and corrosive substance? And you'll die if you don't have it in you for even a couple of minutes? You were born like this? Sounds like an inborn addiction, stop killing your cells.'
(That's not just a joke btw, oxygen is useful, but the body also needs to fight against it constantly, otherwise... things start breaking. oxidative stress.)
Or God forbid, you need some medication to regulate your mind. Taking seizure medication, is okay of course, because it's 'healthy'. Coincidentally, seizures are unusual, can be discomforting to look at someone stop breathing or moving, or jerking and making weird noises. Totally has nothing to do with the impact this has on their mind, you know, the people witnessing this, not the epileptic person. But anxiety... well, maybe you can just talk them out of it? They should just get over it, there's no need for them to talk, or for you to... think such extreme measures as medication as necessary, because they can 'control it' 🤨 Sounds like this is a determination based on ease of the viewer, just concealed in ideas of ''''healthiness''''.
Maybe I'm not making a very good point, I just think it's problematic. No one really gives a shit about health or consent, they just pretend to, ultimately, any argument about whether someone should or shouldn't do some drug, whether it's healthy or not, that isn't 'whether they wants to take it or not' and instead... literally anything else, or even presumed consent ('you'll regret it if you don'it listen to me! You don't know what you're doing.' (Guess what? No one asked.)) is anti-consent, is just immoral.
So the point I'm trying to make, is fuck the idea of addiction and drugs!
Medications are drugs too, literally by the books, yet people don't want to call it that bc, God only knows, they needed a word for evil substances or some fuck, or maybe they just want to push the idea all healthcare is unnecessary (because normal people don't need it ^^^^^^^).
Being reliant on something? That's called being alive! God forbid people are reliant on n u t r i e n t s [pt: nutrients] to survive. Like oh yeah, you need to have this substance regularly in your body, in substantial quantities, or you'll literally start sweating, shaking, panicking, becoming irritated, poor memory, seizing, total organ failure, and just die? You know what that substance is? Glucose. That's the word you're looking for. That's the extreme addiction withdrawal symptoms that plague everyone.
Like,, those aren't bad things, and if you want to find some usefulness in these words, define them for yourself, instead of what others want to define it as.
I'm just saying, if you wouldn't tell me to just live with unmedicated surgery, you shouldn't tell yourself to live with unmedicated chronic pain. That's just not fair or sensical, it's literally the same thing. Same with mental issues, if you wouldn't tell me to stop being a druggie, and drop all those harmful medications that... decrease my seizures, and other mental issues, then why you, right? You still have cognitive/mental issues too right?
I don't know anything about those medications, actually, so I can't say anything there, but it isn't really relevant either. If it helps you, if you want these effects, or if you just, plain decide this is what you want to take, then you should take it. Society and their 'drugs are bad!!!!' anti-consent attitude be damned.
(Not that this was mentioned, but I just want to say, obviously you shouldn't take drugs you don't want either, regardless of how healthy and correct, society, doctors, governments, friends, family, whatever the fuck say it is.)
Sometimes, I see pro-pedophilia (or more commonly, MAP (sometimes YAP though)) arguments being that most child rapists / sexual assaulters / abusers / etc. aren't attracted to children, so, not actually pedophiles (though again, I think most use the word MAP in these convos), which leads to consequent favourable points.
And I do agree in the sense, there are plenty of child rapists / etc. who aren't attracted to children, and that people should be aware of this, the victims being able to talk about their experiences, that their consent was violated by someone not attracted to them (so, for some other reason), without having assumptions made about their experiences, and also,, it's dangerous, because then people might assume if someone isn't (or doesn't seem) attracted to children, then they could never mistreat children, or that they haven't or currently aren't mistreating children, so, either unawareness of danger, or straight up disregarding danger that has happened because of this logic.
I also agree with the consequent points, that attraction != action (and also, not always mentioned but, action != unconsensual action), that just because someone is attracted to children, doesn't mean they have or will mistreat children, and also the above, that a lack of attraction doesn't mean a lack of (unconsensual) action, people can have many reasons for doing things,, like maybe they want to feel powerful.
But... I do get vaguely awkward. Which is why I call this a nothing post. Because I basically agree, and I get what they're doing,, but I also. don't care. Like it's a good point to bring up, but it's not necessary.
Like I just think, well there are also plenty of child rapists / etc. who are attracted to children, I've had my consent disregarded sexually by people who aren't pedophilic, so, aren't sexually attracted to what they're doing with me, but I've also very notably experienced this from people who are actually pedophilic, are clearly sexually (and romantically) attracted to me as well, attraction and sexual pleasure are THE motivators why they're doing this, other things are tangential and this would still be done if they weren't there.
And... I still don't care for that anti-pedophilia/MAP/YAP argument, that attraction = unconsensual action and unconsensual action = attraction.
Like this doesn't. do anything for me.
Unrealistic, but pretending for a second, every single child rapists / etc. in all of time was definitively attracted to children, and this attraction being the main or sole motivation they have for their unconsensual sexual actions against children, this would just be... like a all squares are rectangles, but not all rectangles are squares, situation to me. I still would be pro-pedophilia. I still wouldn't think attraction = unconsensual action. I still wouldn't think, well someone is attracted to children, or IDs as a MAP/YAP (or more rarely, pedophile), so they must have sexually violated the consent of children, or will, and they need to be cured, or that all pedophiles are child rapists, and all child rapists have to be pedophiles, and rape for non-sexual-attraction reasons can't occur.
Like. it doesn't.... have any effect on my perspective. I just don't think attraction is relevant.
I just think, attraction is only a mental phenomena, that exists the same as every other emotion, thought, etc., it ultimately has no effect, no ability to be unconsensual to others, unless it's actually acted out, and even with attraction being the only motivator, it's not just motivations that cause people to do anything, there's the entire system of their mind, their morals and other emotion, thoughts, mental experiences, etc. that ultimately dictate their actions.
Like with that personal example, just because attraction was their main motivator, doesn't mean it's the real problem, that is something I can see in their non-sexual behaviour, to adults and same gender as well.
The way she wants to do something, like go out to dinner, a park, or some other trip, and even if others say no, or are clearly uncomfortable, unwilling, uninterested, etc. she just doesn't take no for an answer, drags them off, whatever. She wants money, the person she's asking doesn't want to give it, she just breaths over their shoulder, guilt trips them, and doesn't relent until they give up. She doesn't care if her actions and requests discomfort someone, she always chooses herself, such as saving money instead of giving food to her own starving child, she's explicitly stated, if she had to choose between her wellbeing and her child's, she would choose herself always.
I see the way she grinds everyone down, even if I haven't seen the whole story, I see how people crumple to her requests in a way only one who's will has been grinded down for years does, not to mention, sometimes they just state it clearly, 'she doesn't take no for an answer, she isn't going to relent, she'll make your life hell until she gets what she wants, the only way is to agree with her, get it over with'... ('so why are you resisting?').
(Sometimes I would look around, and it's just so weird, because I know everyone agrees with me, and doesn't want to do her whatever shitty idea, yet they all just shuffle... go along with it... even criticise me for speaking out... I'm the weird thorn that sticks out, like, how the fuck am I, the hypogonadal mentally disabled child, the only one with even a modicum of will.?)
Actually, I'm annoyed and even find it highly immoral, when people act like sex is the end all be all of consent and mistreatment. People act like, it's okay to violate people's consent, have your way with them, push them around, whatever the fuck, as long as it's not sexual, so these examples, despite being fundamentally the same as child rape, people just think is cute and I should agree with it, that I've got nothing better to complain about, if I think this is immoral. These same people will whine about the poor children, the evil pedophiles, and then lecture me on how I should just do whatever anyone else wants, consent not mattering. Cute /sarcastic/. Even funnier /negative/ when they think sex is bad, even when it's consensual (like gay sex). Or, 'sexual abuse is worse than physical abuse' → how to tell me you just hate sex and don't actually think consent matters at all /meme/. Yeah that's right, fake ass 'consent matters' '''progressives''', I'm looking at you.
Anyways... the point is (before I got caught up venting 🤣) I wasn't surprised when she finally decided to rape me, frankly, really obvious in hindsight. Ignoring the flirting as well, this is just. This is just her entire personality, walking all over everyone, always wanting her way, never taking no for an answer, having no care if her actions are disagreeable or harmful to others, her being the only person who should get their way... etc. etc. *That's* the problem, the attraction thing, is at most, just a motivation for those sexual actions, but didn't make her not someone who violates others' consent, if she was attracted to children, but didn't have this 'I like violating people's consent for laughs' personality, she wouldn't be a child rapist, the attraction is inconsequential...
Like,,, remove the pedophila from her (however that works, just imagine for a second that conversion therapy was both useful and ethical), she'd still violate children's consent, she's still engage in immoral, unconsensual, harmful, etc. actions against children (and everyone else), she'd still be an abuser, she'd still be a bad person, it fixes nothing... And add pedophilia (again, however that works, just the thought) to someone who respects the consent of children/others, and they still wouldn't be a child rapist, abuser, or literally anything else. Like. This changes nothing.
Also, reminder, I don't find sex uniquely special, and I wouldn't be okay with her violating my consent as long as it's not sexual, it would not make me think she's a better person in the slightest.
Actually... more on that. There's implications here. Many say, the reason why sexual misconsent is uniquely bad, or why only certain unconsensual actions are wrong (while harmless, or helpful unconsensual actions are fine, if not straight up morally pure and good), is because, even if they claim to care about consent, it isn't consent that matters to them, it's harm, consent is just an assumption (a joke, more like). And yk, IMPLICATIONS. I sometimes wonder, if that's why people scramble to justify how torn up, how traumatised, how emotionally scarring, etc. some event was to them, because even if they don't say it, don't quite realise it, they know subconsciously, this is the game they need to play in order to have unconsensual actions against them considered wrong, to get help, to protect themselves... And naturally, no one considers the opposite, because I am a freak /silly, but also negative/, where... technically this means, even supposedly immoral things like child rape, aren't immoral as long the child doesn't get PTSD, some mental issue, experiences (great) pain, etc. over it... This means, it's literally morally okay, if not straight up good, for me to to be raped, as a prepubescent minor, because I won't get PTSD or some other issue. Like woooow. /negative/ You really saved the children with this one, or killed the pedophiles (they actually uplifted them XD XD XD), whatever it is people jerk themself off about these days, it's all the same.
I just. Totally lost the argument. But yeah I don't care about attraction. And it's so awkward, but I literally don't think it matters, and if anything if you push it too much in the opposite direction, that being MAP is okay because most rapists are MAPs, like uh oh, it's still the same point that attraction matters, just that it matters a lot to prove it doesn't matter (yk, like trying to really hard to look like you're not trying,, kinda contradictory..).
Like, if I think this... does this mean I'm arguing against those people, even if we're both pro-pedophilia/MAP/YAP + attraction != action != unconsensual action ,, etc. etc. ?? I feel weirdly on the edge... But then again, idk maybe I just too ahead of the curve?? /joke
Also yes I know I'm a bad writer pls don't beat me (* ´ ﹃｀*) /not serious.... /pathetic. I have schizophrenia (or at least some schizo-spec stuff) okay. I'm meant 2 be messy and incoherent and go all over the place with my thoughts (I just want 2 explain it right,, because if you don't have all the ideas, it won't make sense in the same way, and I'm not going to just assume you have the same cousin or foundational beliefs as me, because then why not others? Why talk at all? >_< >_< >_<)
you're so interesting to me. i love reading your posts alot.. you just type in a super cool way idk. also you've never had a bad take
The Pomni rizz continues... effortlessly cool XD
Though really,, I think I type kind of poorly. I use too many filler words, 'like', have a limited vocabulary, and sound too unsure of myself (but even if it may sound better, if I state everything like a super confident fact,, I don't want 2 do that,, because I don't want to seem like... I'm not open to thinking and changing,, like what if I'm wrong. it happens).
Like, in a more official/professional setting, I wouldn't be a good writer. But maybe that's just me being too concerned with s o c i e t y [pt: society] ^tm.
Well,, that last bit is interesting though. Because I personally feel like I've become. Boring. Mainstream. Cowardly. Uncontroversial. I feel like some kind of icky moderate. But maybe my view is a bit skewed. Like,,, you all don't see the super duper controversial takes I have (only husband (* ´ ﹃｀*) knows about that ᢉ𐭩..), everything I post,, has a degree of safeness to it. I also think... everyone's going to jump me suddenly, and it's only a matter of time,, everyone hates me... > _< so I also try to post mildly controversial things, in the hopes I'll set people off and so I know + can block them + push them away...
(Holy mental illness.)
This is nice ask /genuine/ sorry for being so pathetic and sad >_< >_< > _ < ૮◞ ‸ ◟ ა The lack of hatred in my life (partly due to my own negligence) is making me struggle to take positivity. I don't know why people r nice to me. ever.
(I know. Ironic that I'm also narcissistic, but in my defense, being internally confident does not need to mean being externally confident, especially considering I'm not actually being vulnerable, because I know I'd be fine / can't have my life and goals hindered because of this... Yes, I'm a bit of a freak.)
Your intro says you’re okay with sexual anons,,, we’re a system with cishypersexuality and intrusive thoughts are being intrusive. Would you mind if I, the host who suffers from them the most, just randomly gives you little blurbs that our brain won’t let go of?
Warning it’ll have a lot of taboo stuff (we also suffer from and generally have paraphilias) so if you say yes then please list any limits so we know what not to say 🙃
Gonna claim 🖤✨ anon because why not
-🖤✨
I don't mind,, you can write your intrusive thoughts here,, >_<
Maybe unrelated, but I get intrusive thoughts too, involving all sorts of graphic terrible things,, if that brings you any comfort. It doesn't matter how immoral or grotesque it is, I don't mind,,, maybe,, I'll even have had the same thoughts!
>_< >_< >_<
Well,,, as you can see,,, I don't respond often (especially lately, for some reason..) I'm also not sure I'll have much to say, but I'll read it and post it,, I hope that helps.. >_<
Saw you’re transanonhated and we’re bored so here’s some spam lmao
Also we’re bodily cisautistic and TERRIBLE at ragebaiting so can we like,,, practice on you,,, we have a bill fictive who wants to be mean to help with atypical dysphoria
(we aren’t familiar with transids but he’s like. Trishateful/harmful/manipulative cause we as sys aren’t hateful or harmful or manipulative but he as a separate entity is cishateful/harmful/manipulative even tho we struggle with it :’D)
Stealing the anon tag 🐲 cause I (host) am a dragon :)
-🐲 anon
:3 :3 :3
Yep, you can practice on me!
I'm kind of cis-hateful / cis-harmful / cis-manipulative too,,, /pathetic/ Hopefully you all won't struggle with it someday,, >_< >_< >_<
Well I mean,, if you're willing,,, as you can see,,,, I take a long time to respond (sometimes).........
Despite my willingness to get these messages,,, I don't know how to respond to them lately... All I can do it kick me feet,, like yay,, everyone h8s me ᢉ𐭩 ᢉ𐭩 ᢉ𐭩
LMAO TS IS TOO FUNNY literally so fuckin dumb that u cant even insult right. At least the teeth insult was mildly decent, but even that was shitty jasjnddn. I'd like to say not to worry and that u'll be not stupid and pathetic some day, but ur always gonna be like that. Stupid fuckin bitch 😭😭😭
I feel a bit bad, because I never responded (and now their blog was terminated,, I guess?)
>_ < > _< > _ <
(And I still have nothing to say! ,,, Well,,,, I still like looking at the message... Yep > _ < >_< >_< I'll always be stupid and pathetic... perma-pathetically-stupid,,, /positive)
me thinkz pedoomf should have a pinned post as im not always sure what pronouns shouldbe used when talking about pomni,, not forced tho
Hello necroomf (I love those words).
I have an intro linked in my bio,, (also a pt ver. too).
But for convince, I'll repeat them here too: he / they / (neopronouns).
I actually just updated it lol. I like neopronouns, like star, void, co, one, bun, fae,, honestly,, even things like shey are kind of appealing, despite the fact I'm pretty sure shey/shem is a combo of she/they (which doesn't appeal to me),,, it's like, there's just something about them that's neat. (The only neopronoun I have no interest in is it/its.)
Honestly it's pretty weird, I also like the word lass, or lassie,,, even though it's the female version of lad... it sounds different...
ahhhh hahahaaa cries sobs and trashes around or smth
i may have a problem kms
i dont wanna be an addict, of anything,, but theres so much going on in my brain, so much energy and noise and i feel weirdly good and happy but the energy is overwhelming i dont know whats wrong with me
i took 2 ibuprofen and 3 loratadine just because, just to quiet my brain or smth, and got an energy drink for some fuckass reason
yesterday we spent all our money, which is around 50 dollars or something just just because
and i dont knoowwww
some weeks ago (for some context sept 18 is the national holiday of my country) we took like 2 ibuprofen, 2 paracetamol and 2 loratadine and it felt so good, completely pain free,, just enough energy, not too much or too little,, no brainfog either,, i just needed to feel that again so here i am
i dont know,, idk what im doing anymore,, i dont want to end a junkie,, but i also wish i could feel neurotypical and bodily abled like that all the time
dont get me wrong, i love being autistic and being able to feel this deeply and love my interests this intensly, but it also sucks the other half of the time,, the being hypersensitive to stimuli, the hypersensitivity also sucks 50% of the time,, and the other stuff wrong with my brain and body, both diagnosed and undiagnosed
i wouldnt change it for anything, without all this shit i wouldnt be me, but if i could continue to be me but without all the nerfing, then maye i would
Is this what one might call necro-reposting? Because of how old the post is? Well, I think it's interesting, so I wanted to engage with it... Time is a social construct anyways.
I think the concept of addiction and dtugs is interesting, and problematic.
Like, are diabetic people insulin and glucagon junkies? Do they need to lay off the needle? Do people with asthma need to stop huffing those inhalers so much? Or even cancer, so many of those medications clearly poison their body, should they just go all natural, and let nature do what it was meant to do?
Or... hypogonadic people, they're destroying their body, making themselves ugly as hell, with those dangerous AAS, you know, a literal controlled substance.?
Even surgery, I mean seriously, are you going to inject literal fentanyl into your spine? Just because, what? 'Surgery hurty' sounds like you should you should choose the healthier option, of simply enduring the pain of your vital organs being dissected.
I mean... it's so weird, isn't it? These people are all literally taking drugs, substances that alter the body and mind, in large and frequent doses, some being literally the same as 'hard drugs', yet... bit of a different attitude, isn't it?
Of course, even funnier when people do genuinely believe this. They think people should just suffer extreme pain, suffocation, cancer, death, just because. what? Drugs r bad? Just toughen up? I don't need them, so that means you don't need them either? They're unnecessary?
Isn't it clearly fucked? But at least they're a little more honest than the hypocrites, who wouldn't say the same about these uses, yet still criticise others, such as chronic pain, transitioning, mental illness, etc..
The point is, regardless of whether people claim they care about other's health, side effects, wellbeing, well... is it ever really about consent? 'Trans HRT isn't at all the same as those AAS abusers!' The argument against them, is always about everything except whether the person wants to take that medication.
It's why I especially bring up the hypogonadism/AAS example. There's so many examples of the way people disrespect consent with it.
A cis man that wants to take AAS, 'well he shouldn't of course, it'll poison his body! Make him... ugly! He should just work out the normal way!'
A trans man wanting to take AAS, well, on one side, 'he shouldn't of course, it'll poison her body! Make her... ugly! Because those are the most important things. She should just be normal!' on the other side, 'well it's okay, because being transgender is a genuine illness! It's only in healthy doses! It's okay for their body (this time)! It's nothing like those cis men who abuse AAS, those freaks are just ruining their body!'
It flips even more, a hypogonadic man who doesn't want to take AAS, 'well, it's medically necessary, he won't go through normal puberty otherwise! He needs to have normal hormone levels, his body will be ruined otherwise! He'll never look like a proper man!'
Of course, consent isn't part of any of this. Whether it's approval or disproval, whether the person wants to take it not, never has anything to do with anything, in fact, no only is actively depriving people okay, actively forcing people is okay too.
Even the trans man example, the closest it gets to consent, ultimately, isn't about consent. Even the people who argue, trans men who want testosterone should be able to take it, end up arguing, this isn't JUST okay because it's their body, because they should do whatever they want, because they should define what's harmful and healthy, because they should get to do it even if it's unhealthy, because it's their choice, it ends up being about how it's actually healthy! The government and health organisations says it's legal and proper! It's only in small, healthy doses. It's not toxic, their bodies can take it actually.
They allow it because they, the people who's body this ISN'T happening to, ultimately decided it's healthy, or legal, or morally right, or attractive, or normal, are okay with it, the individual's consent, no matter if they're mentioned or not, ultimately isn't actually respected by these people, because it's not the real determining factor.
Again, especially the hypogonadic example, even people who are against AAS in every other circumstance, will suddenly be okay, because guess what, it was never about whatever it is they were yapping about to begin with. 'Trans men are just confused girls, they can't consent!' All of the sudden, consent doesn't matter when it's making the person normal. All of the sudden, AAS stops being toxic and dangerous, because it's normalising now.
('It's just cis men with body dysmorphia, they can be treated with therapy, unlike trans men!')
It's rooted in being anti-consent, no matter whether they use the word consent or not, even their definition of healthiness, danger, unacceptable side effects, etc. are based off their own idea of normal, with the person who would be taking this medication definition of normal not mattering, so like. consent over the details too, to determine things as the wish.
Like so many people with chronic pain. People will understand if it's anaesthetic for surgery or childbirth, because well, it hurts! But when it comes to chronic pain, arguable worse in that it's unending, and also, no reason it can't be just as bad as surgery, all of the sudden, pain isn't that bad, there's no reason to take such unhealthy medications for it. Whether any of these people want it or not, well, irrelevant, isn't it? Even if someone doesn't want sedatives, well, inject them anyways! It's what supposed to happen, it'll make them more compliant! The more the struggle, the more you oughta give them!
For some reason or another, they just decided it's too abnormal and wrong to take regular medication, I want to see them get lectured by aliens for their oxygen addiction, 'what do you mean, you need to constantly inhale a toxic and corrosive substance? And you'll die if you don't have it in you for even a couple of minutes? You were born like this? Sounds like an inborn addiction, stop killing your cells.'
(That's not just a joke btw, oxygen is useful, but the body also needs to fight against it constantly, otherwise... things start breaking. oxidative stress.)
Or God forbid, you need some medication to regulate your mind. Taking seizure medication, is okay of course, because it's 'healthy'. Coincidentally, seizures are unusual, can be discomforting to look at someone stop breathing or moving, or jerking and making weird noises. Totally has nothing to do with the impact this has on their mind, you know, the people witnessing this, not the epileptic person. But anxiety... well, maybe you can just talk them out of it? They should just get over it, there's no need for them to talk, or for you to... think such extreme measures as medication as necessary, because they can 'control it' 🤨 Sounds like this is a determination based on ease of the viewer, just concealed in ideas of ''''healthiness''''.
Maybe I'm not making a very good point, I just think it's problematic. No one really gives a shit about health or consent, they just pretend to, ultimately, any argument about whether someone should or shouldn't do some drug, whether it's healthy or not, that isn't 'whether they wants to take it or not' and instead... literally anything else, or even presumed consent ('you'll regret it if you don'it listen to me! You don't know what you're doing.' (Guess what? No one asked.)) is anti-consent, is just immoral.
So the point I'm trying to make, is fuck the idea of addiction and drugs!
Medications are drugs too, literally by the books, yet people don't want to call it that bc, God only knows, they needed a word for evil substances or some fuck, or maybe they just want to push the idea all healthcare is unnecessary (because normal people don't need it ^^^^^^^).
Being reliant on something? That's called being alive! God forbid people are reliant on n u t r i e n t s [pt: nutrients] to survive. Like oh yeah, you need to have this substance regularly in your body, in substantial quantities, or you'll literally start sweating, shaking, panicking, becoming irritated, poor memory, seizing, total organ failure, and just die? You know what that substance is? Glucose. That's the word you're looking for. That's the extreme addiction withdrawal symptoms that plague everyone.
Like,, those aren't bad things, and if you want to find some usefulness in these words, define them for yourself, instead of what others want to define it as.
I'm just saying, if you wouldn't tell me to just live with unmedicated surgery, you shouldn't tell yourself to live with unmedicated chronic pain. That's just not fair or sensical, it's literally the same thing. Same with mental issues, if you wouldn't tell me to stop being a druggie, and drop all those harmful medications that... decrease my seizures, and other mental issues, then why you, right? You still have cognitive/mental issues too right?
I don't know anything about those medications, actually, so I can't say anything there, but it isn't really relevant either. If it helps you, if you want these effects, or if you just, plain decide this is what you want to take, then you should take it. Society and their 'drugs are bad!!!!' anti-consent attitude be damned.
(Not that this was mentioned, but I just want to say, obviously you shouldn't take drugs you don't want either, regardless of how healthy and correct, society, doctors, governments, friends, family, whatever the fuck say it is.)
bc they all imply im human in some way, whether physically, legally or socially, which i am not.
im not human in any way, i dont think im any species either, i dont think thats a concept applicable to me. dogs see me as one of their own, cats dont percieve me as a dog tho, but birds like me too, bugs and arachnids as well.
i like to call myself a dog, as theyre the species i most connect from, since childhood there has always been a thing with dogs, i was raised with them, when i was little they let me test their boundaries and taught me their limits, i used to bite a lot, other dogs, people, pencils, anything i would put in my mouth and bite, but i've never been bitten my a dog. dogs that are known to have bitten people before are nothing but love with me, bc they see me as one of their own, but humans seem to not think the same, maybe because i lack a tail and im not dog shaped, but ahh, i dont even remember where i was going with all of this, i forgot the point i was trying to make
i guess im "human" shaped, but not human, maybe in the way vampires are humanoid but not exactly human. i dont think i could ever be comfortable being refered to as one
I get it, and I agree with you using whatever you want! You don't have to use anything human related or sort yourself into a species. You're a dog to me! (But maybe I'm not the best person to say this, because dogs scare me... I mean, you are through the screen, so it's fine, you can't bite me, just like dog videos...) You're not human!
Personally, I've vaguely fucked around with the idea of alterhuman, and more briefly, other similar terms.
I like some of the concept, of being not-entirely-human, but it's also a bit weird, because it's alter-human, like I'm a human that's been altered? Or I'm an alternative kind of human? Which is... weird. Even if I'm demi-human (in one way), I don't like the umbrella label just being, another kind of human, that's not the same and demeaning. Also, like in the parentheses, this wouldn't describe my totally non-human IDs, like sheep (I only use demi-human for winged human!)
Therian didn't stick for whatever reason, maybe too complicated? Trans-species, maybe because it came later, and I'm not trans species, transitioning my species, or anything, I just am these things, so if anything, I'm cis-sheep, and that kind of stuff (I still tend not to use prefixes though.)
A point, that also made me uncomfortable with these IDs (that I haven't really seen with trans-species, thank God), is how they'll... constantly go on about how therians/alterhumans/etc. know they're not animals (or anything else)! They know they'll never biologically be anything else! They know they're actually human! They don't actually believe they're animals or anything, that would be a delusion, psychosis, schizophrenic, icky bad mentally illnesses, which they aren't! Because they know better! They're not mentally ill by any definition so it's okay!
Like. um. I think I'd rather be mentally ill, delusional, psychotic, schizophrenic, etc., than whatever the fuck that is. That really seems negative of mental disorders, and anti-consent, like... everyone should be what they want 2 be, and that's the truth,,, mental illness or not, that doesn't make anything inherently bad or wrong,, also... they're actually animals, machine, plants, cells (?), etc., not... this... actually normal and human fucked-up-ness. I don't want to be normal, nor do I think that should be something people should strive to be.
Like, this winged demi-human. sheep. russian dwarf hamster. goldfish. dymkovo toy horse. marshmallow. machine. thing of many faces. is really these things, on a mental and psychical level. cognitively, even. and mentally ill/disordered/diseased, insane, crazy, schizo-spec, cis-stupid, etc. while I don't consider this a delusion, I'd rather be delusional than. associated with that. Like don't lump me in with you XD ableist, speciesist, anti-consent/self-identification lot.
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I never got to vent about it, maybe (?) so I suppose I did so here.
it fucks me up how the right to have our basic needs met and respect are called "human rights", as if other species dont deserve food, shelter, and respect, but maybe im too woke idk
I agree with the og, in that everyone deserves to live a good life, water, food, shelter included.
I would also add on basics like medicine / medical care / etc., clothes, heating/cooling, education, but yeah. Basically the same idea, probably just didn't list it.
Also, you're right for being mad. Non-humans deserve these things, to have a good life, too! It's very human centric, and you're not too woke, the world should get better.
(But also, I know I'm really that great at it... I mean, I use things like people or everyone... idk >_<)
