03-30-2020
Day 2 of my trend here.
Work started very good. I had a positive mindset, but I lost focus. I think I’m lacking direction. I should require myself to maintain a list of current activities and make quick decisions, and stick with them. I am working through this problem, and the technical difficulty and task of gaining a lot of information from various recourses is probably the most time consuming, and wrecks my focus. Lacking long-term focus is a personality trait that lives in my constant racing mind. I am training to be more mindful. I will form a habit out of it. I got out and walked today. The 6′ rule was followed as much as possible, but on the trails it often gets mutually and (as respectfully as possible), broken. I have levels of concern about it. But I also have levels of concern about not getting outside. It clears my mind.
I’ve played my instrument the past few days, and would like to dedicate today to working on the programming side of my music... but I feel guilty doing so without my formal practice session first. The problem is, always starting with the same thing means it’s normally the only thing with the given time constraints.
I think I fear sleeping. Who the fuck fears sleeping?
Thanks.
List:
a. Exercise
b. Play Music
c. Read
d. Pray
e. Journal my thoughts, moods, goals, etc.
I guess this list being crossed off makes it a successful day. Peace out.