04-05-2020
I’ve done a great job keeping up with my daily list. Clearly. Here it is, summarized for the past 6 days:
a. Exercise (6/10)
b. Play Music (8/10)
c. Read (6/10)
d. Pray (2/10)
e. Jounal (2/10)
Okay, So I need to pray and journal more consistently. My normal exercise has been difficult as all the gyms are closed. I struggle to find at home exercises that keep me motivated. That shouldn’t be the case but it really is. I find myself not sure what to do. I have kept to my promise of no liquor for 30 days, today is the 8th day. I have nothing significant to say about the effects yet. I am hoping I will.
Today is a terrible mental health day. The one big thing I wanted to do this weekend failed and resulted in almost 24 hours of wasted efforts. My schedule (sleep and otherwise) was completely set off. I keep trying to tell myself it is over and to just let it go but I am so pissed about it. And for some reason I am so helplessly exhausted. I don’t want to be fucking tired. I am tired of being tired. I guess I am going to spend the little rest of my precious weekend I have left with my music.