#transitioning ftm

[catsbiggestfanboy]

// I had a consultation for my next surgery to continue transitioning! 👏 I’m looking at April-ish for surgery date as long as I get my letters in quickly, then it’s about a 4-8 week recovery so I’ll be out of work for about that long. I’m excited to get it done with then move on with my life

[eli-is-daydreaming]

4 Months On T

As of the 3rd, I am 4 months on testosterone! So, I thought I would make a small post about my experiences with it and all. Now, reminder, that my experiences are not the same for everyone else. Testosterone can effect others differently and changes can happen at different times for people.

!!Reminder that I do testosterone injections!!

So, here’s a little list of sfw changes that have occurred since I started Testosterone:

- Skin: pre-t, I used to have pretty decent skin, not too oily, not too dry. Nothing I had to worry about too much. Since starting t, my skin has become significantly more oily and I’ve had quite a few breakouts. The acne on my back has also become a lot worse, so dealing with that is a pain. I had to change up my skincare routine and I’ve actually had to invest some money into certain skincare products meant for oily skin. Obviously something that is completely natural when on hormones.

Weight and muscle: another thing that is natural when on t. I won’t go into too much detail with this because my weight is something I struggle with anyways. I have noticed a slight redistribution of fat from my thighs and hips, with some of the fat going to my stomach. Muscle wise, I can’t say much yet because I see no difference. Also, I still have baby face, but we’ll see if T changes that in the future. 

Voice: I started noticing a voice change around the two-three month mark. Was pretty surprising to see a change that early lol. I kind of have that stereotypical “boy going through puberty” voice going on. Voice cracks galore as well. Most of the time my voice is just pretty scratchy/hoarse sounding.

Facial and body hair: So, I’m a natural blonde and I’m used to having pretty light hair. The darkening of my body hair was a surprise honestly. Testosterone has made my body hair thicker, darker, and grows a lot faster now. Facial wise, I wouldn’t have noticed anything if it wasn’t for my friend pointing out that the peach fuzz that I’m so used to having on my face is slightly darker above my lip. 

Emotional state: I have depression and anxiety, so it has definitely been a wild ride. We all know how puberty is though. It’s a rollercoaster of emotions. The most prominent emotions I have had to deal with since starting t though, have been random moments of rage and just an indifference towards a lot of things. I’ve been playing certain video games, doing vent art, and just writing in a notebook to help try to deal with this though!

Hunger: My appetite is all over the place currently. The first two months I was just always hungry, compared to the small appetite I had pre-t. Currently, there’s days where I eat a lot more, and then other days I’m just not hungry at all. 

A little ‘nsfw’ or just personal stuff that I’ve experienced since starting T:

TW for Period: I haven’t had a period since a little after the two month mark. I’ve had spotting moments, but not an actual flow. Which I’m very happy about. Occasionally I will still have period pains when I would usually be on my period, but nothing too serious.

Sweat (in this section cause I know some people are uncomfy with this): I used to not be a sweaty person at all. Since starting t, I swear I sweat constantly. The summer heat isn’t helping either.

Clitoral growth: I’m honestly not sure how to describe this because it feels kind of self explanatory. But, I have noticed a small amount of growth so far. There is only a slight difference though.

Sexual changes: Oh my god. I never used to be a sexually active person. Never had sex with anybody, never really thought about it, or never had the urge to masturbate. Nothing like that. Testosterone has definitely changed that. Horny thoughts 24/7 I swear to god. Now, I’ve still never done anything because ~dysphoria~ but there is nothing shameful about being open about your sexual urges and engaging in them!

Again, all of this is just how testosterone has changed MY body so far. Changes can occur at different times for everyone, while some people can have completely different changes. That’s just how puberty is though! 

Starting testosterone has been one of the best decisions I have made in life and I know it was the right track to take. I don’t have to keep pretending to be someone I’m not. I’m so much happier now!!! 

Also, it’s okay to take small steps when it comes to hormone therapy. It’s okay to not even want to do hormone therapy. There’s several reasons that a person chooses not to go through with hormones or surgery, so don’t judge others and question their “transness.”

[shirou45]

On the last day of pride!

its crazy to think after waiting for so long that Tuesday i’ll finally be having my top surgery. Its been and interesting ride to get here, but the support from friends and family made the journey so much better. i’m so excited and can’t wait!

[shirou45]

Whooo! 11 months on testosterone. Its honestly surreal still, like I still notice changes just not as much. I'm really happy with how things are going so far and I know this is one of the best decisions I've ever made. I'm becoming more confident with myself, and I'm just genuinely happier. As this journey keeps going I know I can do it thanks to all the support I get from my family and friends.

[yeahimatransman]

Got a comment from my coworker today about how much my jawline has changed and is become more square. I keep staring at myself in the mirror because I honestly can't tell the difference since I am with myself all the time. It was exciting to hear from someone else though. Plus she was excited about it for me and I love the energy.

Also been getting gendered correctly in drive thrus more often which is also awesome. Throws me off every time. Makes the times I get misgendered more sad at the same time though. Oh well. You win some you lose some.

Good times here!

[shirou45]

So I've been noticing my voice is definitely lower. It's pretty cool, 10 months have gone by and I'm noticing changes more and more. 😁

[shirou45]

Aw shit

So my name is legally changed... I was also able to change my gender on my I'd too..... holy shit whoo! It still hasn't fully set in yet, 8 years of this journey and it seems like I'm just starting it now. Next week is 6 months on testosterone so yeah... wow things are going pretty well

[shirou45]

My voice keeps cracking!

Like at first it was every once in awhile. Now its every other sentence. Im really pumped about it honestly. Also im still stuggling with the name change because getting a birth certificate is a huge pain.