∞: something i wish i’d done differently - Tapestry From An Asteroid
i had to think about this a lot. :)
ftr i was pretty sure of what i was going to do to sho in that story. it was one of those things i was certain of even before i began working on it, but when i got to the part where i actually HAD to do it, a part of me felt like i could've thought of a way for him to get an extension. it was a sudden feeling of being sorry for the character, the 'i wish i could've given you more time since this is an AU anyway' kind of thing despite the big possibility of it ruining the story.
i had that moment again when i was working on part seven. i was listening to sad instrumental music to get into the mood, but at one point i felt so sorry for what i was doing to jun that i somehow wished i just had them run away to earth or something, the both of them finding a way to extend their time. it was inspired by blade runner and it took a lot of refining to make it not exactly like blade runner, but a part of me felt that maybe if i stuck with the general plot of the film i wouldn't have to do what i did.
i was pretty conflicted when i wrote parts six and seven. at first i was thinking 'this is my time to shine' because angst is something i knew i could do, but when i was angsting for real in that story i had those moments where i wondered what could've happened if i went with one of the three original ideas i had before choosing to write the fourth idea.
