#trapped here

[permahelpful]

Going thru a slump. Might take a break from social media. You might see a post here and there. But I really don't feel good, I'm so nauseous. I just don't feel like working or socializing on discord (which I'm sorry to all I ghosted). K don't feel like doing anything ever. I love the holidays, but it's so overwhelming

I just wanna not exist for a few days. If everything just stopped and left me alone for a few days it'd be great. But that's not how it works and I'm stressed out of my mind and hallucinating more and getting worse. This is just not the joyous behaviour that's expected of me.

Strade, Rev, Emi and Andrew have been amazing fronting for me. If you wwant our main non rq discord to keep kn contact with at least my headmates. Dm us and pleasepromise to not reveal it. But for me in particular, I'm taking a break until we feel better.

[fuckyeahjayreatard]

[eagleshaveeyes]

It's my 8 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[amerasdreams]

I hate how most men never bothered to learn how to show love in a way that would be interpreted as love to a child instead of vague distant tolerance and duty interrupting the masses of vague disapproval and outbursts of annoyance at minor inconveniences which make a child feel like their very existence is an inconvenience and without it the dad would be at peace and do his own thing without this piece of human refuse dragging them down

[android-girlz]

i think this is the worst depressive state i've ever been in. even when i was sixteen and dangerously suicidal i was better off because i felt like there was a way out, and i was still young enough that i really couldn't be too hard on myself for being stupid or failing at something. but now i don't want to kill myself and it's making me want to die

[reneink]

And here we are...

Trying to tell to my heart, that you are not real, that you even know my name...and I smile like a stupid when I see you smile, see your eyes...trying to breath...

Answer me stranger, Why you appear now? when I decide to close my heart to that stupid feeling...maybe a joke of the destiny? who knows....(sigh) and I’m here, trying to tell to myself that you not here...you are far far away, we live in different worlds, two lands apart...and I’m still smiling like an idiot when I see your eyes and hear your voice...why?

(a tear falls...the afternoon begins to fall)

[tinymute]

Casually using the college computers to post this. So bored I want to d i e but like this post and I’ll send you memes.