The are many many MANY tiring things about living with anxiety AND putting the pro in procrastinating, but you wanna know what’s probably the MOST TIRING and mundane thing for me?
It’s the INABILITY to do anything that doesn’t have a deadline while you get anxious about ALL YOU COULD BE DOING.
And the thing is, it doesn’t matter if you actually enjoy whatever you are not doing: you just don’t do it and stay there paralyzed and feeling guilty while you sabotage yourself with “not worth it”, “anyway you would never achieve that”, “Don’t bother, what’s the pressure/point”, etc.
Today this is about all the projects and ideas I have started or noted down, that I cannot seem to be arsed to pick up and do (and enjoy!), but it could be about anything, really.
Sorry for the rant, will probably delete later, but sometimes letting this out in the open helps. And sometimes when I see a post like this, it helps me, too. So there’s that.
