#warning negative

[silverwindsblog]

I blacklisted it, yet I keep seeing it everywhere. This made me not wanting to visit random people’s tumblr for awhile. :/

When the popular thing that you just don’t like and tired of hearing and seeing it... and it keeps going. It’s exhausting. I love people’s enthusiastic towards it and creating their own theories, but I’m conflicted that this is all people talk about. I sound like I’m a fun killer here. There’s nothing wrong with being passionate about something, so long it doesn’t hurt anyone. But yeah, at the same time I feel the negative attitude “Oh people are still talking about that.” rising from my brain that I wanted to push it down and don’t bother anyone with it.

On the positive note, this pushes me to finish this project by mid July. I want to see my vision coming true.

[mouseyfox]

A word of etiquette when living in apartments... THREE AM IS FOR SLEEPING. ANYTHING PAST MIDNIGHT IS FOR SLEEPING. STOP FUCKING SCREAMING WHEN YOU TALK AND PLAYING LOUD MUSIC AND GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP OR AT LEAST SHUT THE FUCK UP SO I CAN

[mouseyfox]

TUMBLR I DO NOT LIKE FIFTY SHADES OF ABUSE. GET THIS SPONSORED AD OF GARBAGE OFF MY DASH. PLEASE AND FUCK YOU FOR SUBJECTING ME TO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.

[mouseyfox]

I’m having so much anxiety over this godforsaken German course, and I’m having to spend a LOT of energy on NOT pulling out my thrice-damned hair. I’m having those ‘would it just be easier if I shaved it all off?’ moments. It won’t, of course, cause then I’ll just pluck out my body hair, but it’s a deceptively tempting short-term fix.

[mouseyfox]

So I was doing really well on this whole recovery nonsense, and then taking a shower this morning I managed to make myself throw up and cramp up badly enough that I had to call out of classes/work and go back to sleep. So, here we are, it's noon... I haven't eaten anything which means I haven't taken my meds, I'm out another day of pay from my job at the library, my abdomen is still cramping, I have no clue what I can stand to stomach right now, and I'm severely frustrated with myself.

[mouseyfox]

I can't get my sister and my god sister's judgemental voices out of my head now, and I'm having trouble keeping my untrustworthy hands out of my hair where I know they will only be urged to pull out my hair. Because that's absolutely what I need right now. Great. Thanks body.

[mouseyfox]

I just saw the electoral college results and I'm so mad and stressed out my body is trying to revolt and make me sick.

[mouseyfox]

If I didn’t have an exam tomorrow I would have already started drinking. I’ve been watching the news since 5pm and ugh.

Just a reminder though that I don’t think there’s a single state yet that has ALL of its votes in. So far that means everything on the news is a projection - not a decision.