#trigger warming

[allmothsdied]

TW

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Just hit me now across the face

Hurt me please, and I'll be okay

I just need to feel some pain

That don't comes by hand of the

destruction of my own brain

I feel so damn low and it's not

Getting any better, just let me feel

Something real, something

That's not feeling empty and numb

Just paint me black and blue

Kiss me with bruises, made new scars

And hold me close, just for tonight

Cause I am really not okay

I can't escape myself

And this drowning feeling

I beg you on my knees

Just hit me across my face

Just abuse me a little

And leave me with your fingerprints

Colored into my skin

[6merik6n-g6thik]

[notcoldatall]

[allmothsdied]

They told you

How you're amazing

In the role of mother

You was eleven years old

They told you

That your mother is lucky

To have daughter like you

Who take care of home

And your baby brother

You was thirteen years old

They told you

How you're capable

Of looking after their babies

As adult

You was between 11-13 years

They told you

Your mother wouldn't take it

Without you

Taking care about her

They told you

You're so mature for your age

They told you

Bunch of another shits

You was adult in child's body

Drowning choking aching

At fifteen you broke down

You stop being able to take care of things

You stop being able to be functional

Insomniac sleepless kid

Tired starving self-harming

Suicidal depressed teen

Skipping school skipping meals

Skipping life skipping events skipping friends

And they stop telling you things

Then they stop talking with you at all

Failure after failure

Arguments fights anger

Misunderstanding

Sadness of your mother

Friends leaving silently like ghosts

Another break down

At age of seventeen

Interrupted study

Sleeping for half a year

Another suicides attemps

Another scream and fighting

Then big return to school

Just for ending studies

Leaving your school for good

Before the end of the year

Lost future of lost child

They used to told you

How amazing u was

In the role of mother

In age of eleven

They used to told you

That your mother was lucky

To have daughter like you

Who took care of home

And your baby brother

In age of thirteen

They used to told you

How you was capable

Of looking after their babies

As adult

Somewhere in age 11-13

They used to told you

Your mother wouldn't take it

Without you

Tooking care about her

They used to told you

You was so mature for your age

They used to told you...

They used to...

They don't talk to you anymore

They all left

Silently like ghosts

Look at you now

And them...

The are all gone now

[teenager-stuff]

[allmothsdied]

Trigger warming

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V pondělí mi vyrvaly dvě osmičky

Večer toho dne jsem si už pokuřovala cíga

V úterý jsem přestala žrát léky na bolest

Ve středu - dneska, jsem vytahala všechny stehy

A vrátila se ke svýmu milovanýmu zvracení

Hádám, že papír na hlavu mám oprávněně

A je to jen pár týdnů, co se mi miniaturní střepy

Z v opilosti rozbitý skleničky zabodly do prstu

Žiletkou jsem další den nařízla bříško ukazováčku

Ale pinzetou je nešlo vytáhnout

Tak jsem je i s kusem masa vyřízla

Protože přece si nenechám sklo v těle

[dawghouseooc]

[volunruud]

those posts some guys make like "if i was a girl i would have a little waist and big huge tits" as if they'd even get a choice whatever i wanna play this game too. if i was a guy....

my face would be so impossibly goregeoys i cant even describe it. but yes a nice defined jaw and strong chin of course, like kind of typically masculine manly man square face but in a much more considerate and genuinely beautiful way. i would have a perfectly thick dark beard, it would obviously connect and there would not be any bare patches. it wouldnt be too thick of course, just the right amount. i shave it every now and then but i usually let it grow out, not too long though. my lips the perfect size and plumpness, perfectly proportional to my face. my eyelashes would be long, thick, dark, and goregoues. my forehead would be not too large, but obviously the larger forehead of a man of course. my hairline is unspeakably perfect and thick, as is the rest of my hair. i would have gourgeous just-past-shoulder-length slightly wavy very dark brown almost black hair, it would always smell amezing but look greasy and dirty like in a movie (think aragorn from lotr movies vibes). and my eyes would be a gongeous shade of green, A nice pale green with brown and gold flecks. my body would be hairy as fuck, thick dark hair covering my body. not too much though, the perfect amount. like my whole chest but it would look beautiful and the hair would go down the center of my abs in a nice line straight to my bush. is it called a bush on a man? my thighs would be the most beaufitiful part of me, so thick and gongeous and hairy as fuck and strong as hell. second only to my thighs would be my beauriful calves, the perfect muscular hairy calves we've all been waiting to behold. my feet would be handsome and manly, callused but not cracked or stimky at all. my toe nails and fingernails will be very short just from natural wear (i would be a hard working man) not from being manicured. my voice would be extememly sexy and deep, NOT in a cringey way at all but the very sexy way you'd imagine a man to sound in your head NOT the way they actually sound irl, even the sexiest man blegh. but i would only rarely speak, so hearing my impossibly beautiful voice would be extra special. also i would be 6'5. i'd have a beautiful, absolutely gorgeous torso. very thick with abs, but not like super defined ones— like you can tell im fucking huge and strong af and my body is gorgeous, and a georgeus v line. my dick would be 8.3 inches hard and uncut. my balls would be nice and heavy and hang pretty low, but it wouldn't look weird at all. also i would constantly be completely naked and i would never. ever. EVER. be dry. if i'm not oiled up, i'll be bathing outside in a river to maintain a constant soaked look. also btw i'd live alone in the forest.

anyways yeah i recall whenever i was creating farkas and vilkas on dragons dogma 2 character creator free simulator, my bf was watching me and he just said "you are creating your dream man in front of me" and i was gonna say "nooo... nooo...." but i realized he was totally fucking rigjt lmfaoooooo farkas amd vilkas are my dream men fr. also i need another fun character creator in which to create them. i guess i could try to make them in bg3 but none of the faces or hair could ever compare to my beloved and cherished husbands. sooooo boring that there are no sliders in bg3.