#trigger warning: sh

[k0mmari]

Locked & Loaded - Chapter 20: Childish War

Can't believe I've been writing this for almost a year now

[iristheplanet16]

hi! i had a request but no worries if not! i was thinking maybe something sort of angsty and hurt/comfort with bob r! with the reader struggling through an sh relapse and not wanting bob to find out but with warmer weather starting, it gets tougher to hide? just something ive been going through lately haha, again no worries if its triggering or anything!! :)

Awh hi anon I’m sorry this has been something your struggling I wish you all the best and I hope it gets better ♥️

Returning Scars

TW: mentions of SH

Bob is honestly quick to realize what you are doing as he has been in a similar situation so many times trying to hide the cuts with sweaters and long sleeves despite the heat, he carefully plans out how he is going to approach the subject and what he is going to say

He does it one evening when the two of you are cuddled in bed together, his fingers gently sketching patterns across your skin, he is slow in his words trying to remember all the things he planned to say and trying to come across the right way

You instantly move away taking this conversation as him shaming you, or him getting mad at you for this (though logical you know this is not his intentions but you can’t keep out the doubts)

Bob gives you your space moving to the other side of the bed and takes of his shirt, he pointed out the scars littering his arm that the Serum never cured, he explains how he knows what your going through in a way and talks you through the fact hes not judging or shaming you hes just trying to understand how it would be best to help you

You start to sob uncontrollably letting the storm building in your chest all out, you crawl over to sit in his lap as he holds you close whispering kind words of love

You both eventually fall asleep in each others arms after a long descusions that ends in the two of you deciding to go talk to the Teams therapist the following morning

[httpsfunfetti]

TW :: sh , read at your own risk!!

"hey, Cole, show me your cuts!"

Why? Why should I? It’s not something I’m comfortable sharing.. and honestly, it’s not something you should even ask to see.

(Based on an actual conversation irl)

[sickyuyoyuppe]

so scared of going deeper than scratches, but the pain isn't fucking enough!!!!! aghhhhhh

[starxsapphic]

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[pup-ficti0n]

In times of loneliness you were there to caress my skin, Holding me tighter than anyone has, A little too tightly actually, And factually you've only done me harm, Masochistically, I see sweet relief in your hugs and kisses. You disappear for days, And weeks, And months, And I don't even think about you, But when you come back, Oh how I missed you, Darling, You leave red lipstick stains all over my thighs and my life, My suffering is began and ended by you. -an open letter to my razor blade, with shame

[farraigenafeile]

I just want to know that people care

I want to know that they care that I’m not feeling well. That certain aspects of every day life scare me to the breaking point. That I have scars and I’m going to have more. That I cry myself to sleep. That I just don’t want to live right now.

[h-interlandd]

walking around the shops with Paige for two hours was beyond exhausting but at least I got my bio oil which is awesome, gonna fully commit to quitting sh and it'll make me feel a lot better not to have scars anymore