#triggering content warning

[foreverwithchloe]

Life is Strange is a game where a lot of triggering topics are present. In my writing as Max Caulfield I'll be exploring the trauma Max is left with from both endings and everything that happened leading up to the final two choices, Sacrifice Chloe or Sacrifice Arcadia Bay. This will include exploring the trauma Max is left with from The Dark Room. I'll be trying my best to tag things but I wanted to put this in a warning to be safe.

Triggers you will find here....

Suicide

Thoughts of Suicide

PTSD

Death

Death of a Loved One

Car Accidents that lead to death or being paralyzed.

Gun Violence

Kidnapping & Drugging & Fear of Sexual Assault

Assisted Suicide (done at the request of loved one)

[silverheartsystem]

The existential dread has set in I'm going to cry I try not to thing about it cause the future is just so hopeless and I don't need that rn but...gosh I really have no future huh??????

[silverheartsystem]

So I need to get my feelings out because I'm feeling horrible but also great

Trigger warning for suicide, depression, self harm, really just everything bad just don't read this

So basically, I've been relapsing. Hard. I've struggled with depression and anxiety, I've also been struggling with PTSD flashbacks. I think a lot of my problems stem from my autism but that's not really important more a side note. It's gotten worse recently. Like, real bad. Like I'm getting nightmares and my body is physically tricking me and I want to cut myself constantly. Like it...scares me so bad. School is horrible and it literally makes me want to kill myself at every moment. I'm barely hanging on some days and actively falling other days. I'm just scared.

But I'm not giving up. I'm really struggling. But I'm here to admit it. I'm not doing okay. I need help. And I'm going to get it.

I'm also here to note what I'm here for. I have some amazing friends. I love them so much and they do so much for me and they mean everything to me. They are frankly the most important thing in my life.

I also have my special interests. They're so important to me it's honestly scary. Barry and Uni are also some of my closest friends even if it's in my own headspace. I also have countless others, persona 5, Pokemon, BFB, asoue, squids, rocks, minerals, bones. Music!!! I have an amazing choral department and I love music theory so much. It's what gets me to school every day. Without my special interests I wouldn't really have a personality and that's okay, because I'm happy being who I am.

I'm going to be okay. I'm going to struggle a lot. But the most important thing about me is that I don't give up. I fight. I'm writing a story right now, and my character is described as being the light in a dark universe. That is me. I am that light. I'm hurt and damaged. But I'm going to shine. Because I'm an amazing person who is going to change the world. I am going to shine because I deserve a great life after all my pain! And my pain won't stop but I'll get better and I will live.

I will shine, like the beautiful trans autistic demi-girl that I am!!!!!

[thatslayer]

For mutuals of the-rebel-you-know

          This isn't a happy post, but let me predicate this by saying she's basically FINE, but I wanted to update her followers who also follow me. Possible triggering content beneath the cut.

                   @the-rebel-you-know / Crowley Mun was in a car accident Thursday night. Everyone's more or less okay (there's one broken leg, I think, but it was someone else in the car). She's fine, whiplash and either a concussion or contusions the last I heard (I got a text that said 'confusions', which I assume is auto-corrected). 

   She might be MIA for a bit, but I doubt it will be for long. I'll let her fill you in on the details when she gets back. If you have any messages for her, I can pass them along! Just send them via messages.

Specifically sent to @wolfbaneautumn @anastasiastark and @hellsmother

[ratboypuppy]

So I am aware of the triggering/gory/non-con within the popular fandom tags. And I myself have found one of the more active blogs apart of this “attack”, and messaged them. Now it’s nothing rude or something to lash out at them. I said please seek help or speak to a trusted adult or friend instead of seeking pleasure, happiness, comfort and/or revenge through posting this triggering content. Its just not ok. I doubt I may make an impact to their “lashing out”, but I felt like reaching out. I know there’s people running those blogs that hopefully need to hear that.