it’s been a while
“...We need to swap the Romantic view for a tragic (and at points comedic) awareness that every human will frustrate, anger, annoy, madden and disappoint us — and we will (without any malice) do the same to them. There can be no end to our sense of emptiness and incompleteness.” -- Alain de Botton, resident man-with-opinion-on-everything of the world, in a NYT article on marriage via KC.
the more I think about the Big Questions, the more I find there is a small part of me that no love or introspection can ever reach -- a perfectly coherent place of incomprehension, solitude, and energy that is entirely my own, that trying to open myself up to someone else will never help me solve. and that maybe I won’t be able to solve it alone either.
and soon -- July. how quickly and fumbling this year has been so far. how much I’ve been pretending to have it all together, when really, it’s the most uncertain year I’ve experienced yet! time to make some Big Changes and feel like I’m in motion -- the good kind, going towards something I want -- again...