I like my best friend...
I like my best friend, but he doesn't have the same feeling. In fact, he likes another friend of mine. I have been trying to not feel the way I do ever since I knew about them being together. Even though they didn't tell me this to date that they were together. You might think I'm just overthinking this but that's not the deal. I have seen him giving a peck on her cheek and it broke me in pieces as I witnessed it, I was barely able to get a word out of my mouth, I stood still in shock for a few minutes which felt an eternity. Some might think it's not a big deal, but it is a huge deal for me. So since then, I've been trying to stop myself from feelings. To stop feeling jealous to see her arm wrapped around his hand. I just want to tell him sometimes but am too afraid that it will ruin our friendship. I am trying to keep my distance from him but every time I do, he confronts me and I just deny it. Sometimes I just want to hold onto him so tight and never let go. The more I try to get away, the more deeply I'm getting pulled towards him. He's not great-looking, but he is a lovely person with good heat. I do not dare to admit this feeling to him, so I'm dumping it out over here. If you have any solution please let me know.